Our future, our life

I always dreamt and imagined our future. I don’t know what the future may hold but I hope we turn out ok… when I think of how I may lose you one day I feel my heart drop into the pit of my stomach. But when I think of the wonderful nights we will share I feel butterflies in my stomach. The nights where I’ll sit on ur lap as we eat buttery popcorn and drink soda. Watching movies all night long, we’d watch cartoon movies on Disney and after I’ll feel confident suggesting a horror movie. It’d be dark outside and inside making the movie so much scarier, as I’d hide my face against you when things got too scary. Or nights where we could walk to the top of the hill just to lay there for hours looking up at the Night sky and play fighting as fireflies lit up the night. This future is what I look forward to most. I’ve always wondered what you imagined your future to be… would I be in it? I hope so. When we meet I hope we can spend all our free time together and play games and go places where no one rarely goes to even if it’s beautiful. I wanna make memories that are like a page out of a fairytale. But I don’t want just any old fairytale. I don’t wanna be Ariel, Cinderella, or even your Sleeping beauty. I wanna be your princess but not one like any other. I don’t wanna be easy to replace. I want you to be my prince, my bad boy, my pretty boi, or even my softie. I don’t want you to change because of me or anyone else, I want you to stay you. Stay my best friend, my lover, my hope, stay by my side forever and always… If we ever had kids I hope they are like you. I hope they are smart, caring, and strong just like you. You may not see it but your special to me. Your amazing, cool, and perfect just the way you are. Your voice relaxes me, when you “hug” me or compliment me or even say you love me I feel all my worries melt away. You don’t see how strong you are… you are strong emotionally and physically, I admire that about you. I wish I was stronger so I can make you happier. I wanna better myself for you and make myself a girlfriend you can be proud of. I promise I will work hard to become better and worth your time. But for now… be patient and wait for me. I need time to heal from last wounds and redeem myself for my past mistakes. I don’t wanna regret anything, I wanna be someone who’s proud of there own actions and can accept past mistakes with feelings of regret, sorrow, or disappointment. While I pick myself up piece by piece please hold me while you wait. Please stay by my side until the day comes where we can be happy together without worry…

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