Empty

i was just a kid when i met her

i was lost and suddenly she hold my hand and pulled me

then she say " come with me i show you something"

I don't know her and yet she know me

She brought me to this place where i can see a great view it was so beautiful

And when i looked at her face i felt warm in my heart

after that day i started to love drawing

i create a lot of painting of the view that i see that day

and start making portrait of her face

im always excited when i see her were always together but i never asked her name

So one time we hangout i asked her

"hey can i know your name??"

and she responded " Of course im kim "

What i beautiful name i said to myself

i shared my drawing to her and she always looked at it with a bright eyes and said it was beautiful..

We both started to love art be shared each other work

she's much better than me nit gonna lie

and its ok because i love being with her

and then We grow up and slowly becoming teenagers.

We joined a lot group , club just to shared our work and people love it

they people always say " i can feel the emotion in your art it's always full of joy "

and i always responded with " i was hoping that she felt the same way in my art looked at kim "

people always cheer me up

But im ok with it

yeah sure it's a one sided love but im fine with it

just being with her more than enough for me

i Don't even think i deserve to be with her

she's so gorgeous her eyes shine the brightest

her smile show a lot of joy her face is like an angel

her skin are so soft like a cotton

she's perfect

And im just a nobody

She become my reason to draw

she's my motivation in art

every drawing ,art that i make was always inspired by her

maybe that's the reason why people only felt

Joy and love in my work

after a few years i tried to confess to her but she rejected me

but im ok with it

that's what i expected

were still friends and hangout together

few years have past but my feelings for her wasn't fading

maybe she's the one the only one that i would ever love

Then that day came she confessed her feelings for me

inside im was so happy i felt like my heart is gonna explode

but i felt something wrong

and doubts started to pop on my head

am i good enough for her?

can i make her happy?

do i deserve her?

she's perfect and im just a nobody

can i give what she deserves to have?

then she hold my hand and i looked at her eyes

she was such a beauty

Then i let go of her hand and say " Sorry "

and i walked away tears start dropping from her eyes

No Don't ... don't cry....

i will always regret that moment

i cant even looked at her straight in the eye after that

but one day she came to my house

And said she wanna hangout

we talked and laugh that day one of the happiest day in my life

but after that wed didn't talked for a while

in my mind maybe she's busy

but when she told me she has cancer..

that killed me inside

i tried my best to make her happy after that

im always with her making laugh

being there when she need me

then one night her brother told me she was rush in the hospital

the next day i came in the hospital to visit her and im glad she's ok

when i get there she was laughing with her family

when i looked at her and saw that smile it make me feel warm inside

i stayed there the whole day

her family go home to get some clothes and will came back tomorrow

i ask permission to stayed there tonight and the said yes

i was in the chair sleeping

when i felt that she hold my hand very tight

and when i open my eyes

she's crying

and i ask " what's wrong should i call the nurse??! "

Then she hug me and said " im scared i don't wanna die ...... I don't wanna die "

and i said " you won't die trust me you won't die "

and she said " you promised? "

"Yes..."

then i kissed her

then she said " can you sleep in the bed with me im scared.."

i get on the bed and sleep with her she was holding my hand the whole night

when i wake up she was still holding my hand

i tried to wake her up but she didn't responded

so i tried again and again and again....

i run immediately outside too call some help but it was to late she's already gone..

i started to get mad at god..

why her.... why her.. why her

what have she done to deserve this faith

she deserves to live

Why her...

after that i lost my reason to draw

for two years i never did make an art work

And now slowly i started to draw again

most told me " what happened to your work

it used to have lot of emotion now ....it felt empty "

and i always responded " maybe that's just how i feel.."

And walked away...

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