Episode 1

CHAPTER 1: I AM JUST

A KID

“Hi, I am really happy and excited right now, it is first

time for me writhing my thoughts, I keep them to myself all of the time you

know? I still can’t believe Mrs. Miley trusted me and gave me you. As far as I

remember she mentioned that you have a name Rose, your name is lovely, sounds

beautiful. My name is Mia…. Mia Armstrong, I am 14 years old teenage girl,

studying in 8th grade in lyceum of science and technology of New York city.

 I can’t keep all

these emotions, I feel like they are eating me from inside and making me feel tight

up in to the chair with rope made from hot steel. They are everywhere, each

year they grow up. Home I am finding silence at school I hear devils laugh and

crazy human beings having double sided faces. these problems make me hate

myself, feeling miserable and depressed. Overthinking every word in my head all

the time, seeing them smile and after taking of their masks. I am so done with

all of that, just want to run away, from staying strong, from pretending to be

okay.

 Yes, people can be

cruel, talking things I have never done behind my back, I lost my trust to

human race forever, once I trust them they make me regret, being bullied became

my daily routine, thinking I am ugly and feeling horrible thoughts if I am

really that bad.

Not even a single soul at home, my parents are business

people, all they think about is developing their company, well I am glad they

do work that much to make my life best, I am in private school, have always

money in my pockets, and what I like about my parents is that they always trust

me. I have freedom.

 The only thing

holding me from sending my soul fly free in the sky is that I don’t want to

make all those haters happy, they don’t deserve that!” This was Mia’s first

note in her diary.

 She is thin, approximately

170 centimeters tall. Her shining, soft, long, light brown colored hair loves

to play with the wind all the time, by waving in the wind. Her eyes are just

like brilliant, grey color of eyes are really rare, they have one feature which

other eyes don’t. they laugh with her sparkling, and looking serious and deep

while thinking.

 No one ever was by

her side, being shy, kind, soft hearted, smart, and beautiful in addition made

people be jealous, she never had a feeling of her being the best. “Why am I not

good enough? “she asked all the time standing in front of mirror in the

morning. It was okay to not sleep whole night because she just couldn’t, by the

time passing features like never being okay or sure about her answers,

overthinking each word, so maybe she will get what she did wrong. But that

torture became her shadow. She had social anxiety, depression, self-esteem and

all she wanted is just some worm words from real human beings, having someone

real to trust…. have at least a reason to live.

  She is strong and

powerful, wise and kind. She never had that heartless emotions, so she could

easily ignore a homeless beggar on the street, or a kitten\puppy starving to

death.

 Mia found herself in

books, she is so innocent and naïve living in her own world when it is silent,

but when her eyes see no shine outside ocean of memories of the school life

just fill every inch of her head. “What have I done wrong?” “am I really heartless

and bad in other peoples mind” “ I don’t see a reason in this life, but if I

will go, the same day I will make people who work day and night for me to be

educated sad, and those who make me starve happy, they don’t deserve it”…..yes-

yes these are her usual thoughts, no one will ever understand her, but who

knows maybe one day everything will turn upside down and help her, give advice

about loving herself, and show her that those who dose that don’t have anything

in life that Mia has. That all of it is only jealousy of her dreams and ability

to love.

 Who knows maybe Rose

is the one who will take care of our little flower and take her out of fire

safe and sound.

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