Chapter two- lesbian

"One of the most painful things is to love sonebody knowing that somebody dosen't love you back"

POV- Jennifer:

She was the one who pulled me out of the abyss when I was alone and the one that I trusted when in doubts.

My name is Jennifer Lauren and I've had a weird feeling around my boyfriends. Like I don't feel the electricity, the butterflies and all of those sighs that your in love. It 6 year ago that I knew what was really going on.

I was lesbian. At first I boycotted this fact and when to bars and nightclubs to deny the truth. Once I went to a nightclub with one of my boyfriend and I saw a dancer. She looked even more attractive then my companion. I thought it was just because of my drinks and let it go.

Another time I saw a new girl in my school and she was pretty cute. Her name was Kate and I was constantly nervous when I was near her.

It took me a while to finally accept the fact of my orientation but I was scared to come out of the closet. I wasn't ready. What if they wouldn't want me anymore? What if, they would reject me? All my thoughts were panicking to me.

After a while, I went up to Kate and and went to talk to her in the hallways. Turns out, she was even more my type. Long brown locks and green eyes she looked gorgeous. We became best friend. Our friendship has lasted 6 years and I still have a crush on her. They say some loves fades away with time and some are long lasting. I think mine is long lasting.

Anyways today I'm going shopping with Katie. She just broke up with her boyfriend. I was delighted at these news but I pretended to be sad for her. I think in my world, the most painful thing that happened to to me is loving her knowing she'll never love me back.

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"Sometimes, the most beautiful memories turns into the most painful ones"

POV- Kate

"I love you to the moon and back" that's what he said to me a few months ago. It's so silly that I remember these thing. We broke up already. We are no longer in a relationship but still can't help thinking about some episodes of our happiness.

We went out to see the stars that day. It was so pretty. Just like diamonds in the sky. He held my hand and said, if you were a star, I would only wake up in the night time.

I asked why. He just said: to see you.

After thinking about him, I started to cry tears that could drown me. Then, my sister came in. Sarah patted my head and said, everything's going to be alright. Her words where so warm and comforting. I think she's the only one that understands me.

Then she comforted me and said how I'll get over it. I think she really helped yet I wasn't ready to face him again.

I just don't want to be sad again, don't want to feel pain, don't wanna feel hope.

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