episode 3 unfulfilling wishes

Amy was like a book which was waiting for it's reader to read it,,but the book nor was it ever bought by anyone nor it was read,,

she was like a book that she herself wrote but no one ever even opened it to see through it,,

Amy always used to talk with herself,,,,,, she used to say that "it's better to speak with myself at least no one is gonna hurt me later by my own words"

Amy was a very thoughtful person,,,she never had any bad intentions for others,,,she always thought about others first,,

but

in return she never even was in the last number of anyone's priority,,,no one ever even used to think about her,,

not even her family members understood her,,she always craved for those loves ,,,she always used to see others being loved

"being loved by their mother"

"being loved by their father"

"being loved by their grandparents"

but in her childhood her brother used to love her a lot,,maybe in the whole world her brother was the person who used to love her..

so she always said to others that she needs a person like her brother as her future..

when Amy was about to born her mother was taken to the hospital, but her father hadn't came to the hospital to see her,,

he sent a friend of his to see what happened (if it's a boy or a girl )

when his friend saw that a girl was born he went and said to Amy's father that "congratulations you got a baby girl"

Amy's father was not happy,,he hadn't even had gone to see Amy,,

at that time Amy's brother had brought her back ,,,he always looked after Amy..

washed her clothes,,fed her,,made her asleep since childhood she was brought up by his brother..

what her father hadn't done for her,, Amy's brother did much more for her,,

so she always idolized her brother,,her brother was the best gift she ever got from almighty since childhood,

so she always was very much grateful for that,,she always said that "I'm very happy to get a brother like him"

Amy never had a permanent friend since childhood,, because her family used to change house and schools very often,,

so she never got the chance to make a permanent friend in her life,,

whenever she used to make friends they had to move out because of some reasons,

but when she was a child she never understood these things so she never felt much bad

infact she used to feel very happy to see new people in her life,

she was a very funny loving child so she used to make friends very easily.

other children's also used to like her because of her friendly behavior

she always used to he happy no matter how much she suffers inside she never made anyone feel that she's unhappy and broken inside

whenever she used to hear someone say that "my father bought me this"

..."my father is like this"...

she always used to feel very bad cause her father never did anything for her,,nor can she say something like them so happily

but still

she used to smile hearing everything,,she never made anyone know how she felt hearing those words

she always showed that she was doing well but in fact she was broken from inside,,she thought that these happiness wasn't meant for her

she always thought that "maybe I deserve much more than this that's why I'm not getting these things"

she always made her mind saying the words of comfort to herself,,she didn't had anyone to make her understand,,so she had to make her understand everything by herself

her mother was always depressed,,, her father was not with her,,her brother used to go to work,,and her sister was carefree,,

it's not that her sister was not in pain but she was very much strong

and maybe nothing used to effect her much,,but Amy's father used to love Amy's sister a lot,,he always fulfilled every wish of her,

so,, sometimes any used to feel bad hearing those things that how her father loved her sister

...but never even had gone to see her when she was born...

she never showed nor said anyone anything about how much broken she was

...she always just smiled...

after hearing everything

she always showed that kind of face that these things never hearted her

but from inside she was broken,,,she always felt like crying her heart out and saying that

..."it hurts,,and it's killing me"...

but she never could do that because she knew

she knew her family's condition,, she also knew that no one even will understand her,,

so she kept everything to herself,,,she kept everything to herself and made her stronger

she knew that there's no one in this world who is gonna understand her feelings

who will understand how she is feeling

she couldn't even expect from her family to understand her,,

she never could say how much it hurts her when her father abuses her just for some money,,

she never could say that when her mother says

...that "her father went away because of her"...

she was broken by those words from her mother,

she never could say it to them how hurtful it is for her to stay alive in this place ,,,in this world where she only gets hurt,,

everyone whom she thinks is not gonna hurt her,, always breaks her

she always wanted to kill herself,,she always wanted to do suicide

...but she couldn't...

she couldn't cause it's Haram in their religion

...to kill themselves...

so no matter how much hurt or broken she was she never could kill her self

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