Chapter 1

" Hey, gain! do you want to join us later? " Sean said while laying in my bed scrolling through his cellphone.

It's 8 in the evening classes just ended a while ago. The three of us are laying in my bed. They are used in staying here in my room. Because it is clean and neat.

" We will go to laughs and beers later! " said Lucas while eating chips in the corner of my bed." Eh, new club?" I asked while looking at them. They all nodded in unison." You haven't moved on from him, do you?" Aella said calmly while laying backward on the sofa in my room." I'm trying. I'll come with you later" I told them.

The four of us have been friends since we were kids. Because our parents are friends. When we graduated in senior high my friends and I ask permission to move to another house closer to our uni. And our parents agreed, that's why they bought us this 2 story-house. And that's the story of why the 4 of us are living on the same roof.

" Well, you can't blame him ", Sean told aella while looking at his phone." Right, They have been together for 3 years. It's hard to fail to think of the memories you did in that 3 whole years.", Lucas said while swaying his feet in the air still eating the bag of chips." But that guy ended it just because he is going to study abroad. Seriously he sucks.", Sean said aloud while rolling his eyes. Pissed. "But, forget about him. Don't settle for less, gain. Remember that. Cuz' if he really loves you he'll do anything to stay with you." she said aloud while looking at me. I smiled because she looks like my mom when she's scolding me.

Right, It's been a year since he left me. We were in senior high that time, 11th grade. He left me because his mom found out that we were dating. That's why he left here and continued his study abroad. I didn't know that a week after he left. He's already posting a picture of him and some girls.

\=FLASHBACK=

" Babe, let's talk later on the rooftop", Xander told me while caressing my hair and smiling bitterly. It's 6:50 in the morning and it's just the two of us here in the classroom. I'm sitting in my chair reviewing my notes while Xander is in front of me. My heart is beating so loud. I'm scared of what he's going to say. But I kept my poker face and said " Mhm, lunch? " I asked while reviewing my notes not looking at him. He nodded. " Why can't you just say it here" still read my notes. " Nah, it's important. And I n-need time to think about what I'm going to say to you." I heard the crack in his voice. That's why I took a glance at him. He's looking down on the floor clenching his fists he looked nervous. I'm scared. "Mhm...'kay " I mumbled.

Time passed by.  It's already noon. I nervously looked at Xander who was looking at me too. " Gain, let's go!" Sean said aloud and beside him are Lucas and Aella." I'll pass. Xander and I have somewhere to go." I said smiling at them." Tsk, lover birds!" he said rolling his eyes." ****, I think we will die not even experiencing to be in a relationship" Aella said pretending to cry. And Lucas is hugging Sean who is now dramatically dying while hugging Sean. They're hopelessly crazy. I laughed at them and waved my hands. And looked to Xander. He titled his head to one side. Telling me to follow him. So, I followed him. Thoughts keep popping in my mind until we were already on the rooftop.

Xander looked at me." Mom found out about us ", with a bitter look on his face." W-what d-did she says?" I stuttered my words. I know his mom, she's a religious homophobic. " She told me to break ties with you," he said looking on the floor ." And she told me that I'm leaving this school and continuing my studies abroad " tears started flowing in his eyes. I rush forward towards my man and tiptoed to hug him. He's 5'7 tall and I'm 5'5 that's why I tiptoed and hugged him." Shhh, it's fine hmm.." I told him holding myself not to cry. "You know her, gain. Once she made up her mind. She won't take it back." He told me while he was hugging me. " And I don't want her to get hurt because of me. She's the only one that I have since my father left us before I was born" He said still sobbing I can feel that he's in so much pain. I was the first to break away his embrace." What do you mean by that, Xander ?" I looked at him I can't hold back my tears anymore, tears started to well up in my eyes. He took a deep breath and said " L-lets end this, gain " he said and smiled bitterly at me. I clenched my fists and gritted my teeth " I DON'T WANT TO! YOU DIDN'T EVEN THINK ABOUT HOW I WOULD FEEL, YOU'RE SO SELFISH! (sobbing) What about me? What about me, Xander ?", I told him. I can't even feel anything but pain. It's as if my heart would explode. " I am sorry," he said still looking at the floor. " You promised me that you'll stay with me!" I said looking at him. " I'm sorry," he said finally looking at me. But he turned around and slowly walked away. When he was about to open the door he rushed towards me and gently put his hands on my cheek and kissed me. " I'm sorry, gain. I want you but maybe this isn't the right time for us." and he left.

\= END OF FLASHBACK=

"Pfft- fine, fine. Didn't I tell you that I'm going with you tonight to forget him?", I said still laughing." No, you didn't tell us, you just said that you will go with us not forget him. But, anyways that's good. Forget about him and meet a guy who's more worthy of your love." Lucas told me while smiling.

I can't believe that it has been 3 years since he broke ties with me but I still haven't moved on. But I think this is a sign to leave those memories behind and focus on the present.

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I'm already done. I got in our car first to wait for them. I just wore a white loose polo. And on the right side of my polo is tucked in. On my black pants along with white sneakers.

We're already in front of the club. You can hear the loud music coming from the inside. I felt alive again. And I knew that I will enjoy tonight's party. Before we go in. A guard asked for our IDs. When I stepped inside, the music got louder. It felt so lively. Aella pointed to our table and the four of us walked towards there.

Lucas raised his hands to catch the attention of the waiter near us." One bucket of beer, please!" Lucas said aloud for the waiter to hear what he is saying. Not long after that, the waiter arrived and put the bucket of beer on our table. Sean quickly picked up a bottle of beer and straightly drink it." Kyaahhh! Life is so short that's why enjoy every moment of your life, you fools! " sean said while raising his right hand that is holding another bottle of beer." That's right enjoy your life, cheers!" I said aloud while standing. And the three of them stand and say " RIGHT, CHEERS!! " in unison. And the 4 of us drink the beer that we're holding in one go.

Not to mention the 4 of us have a high alcohol tolerance.

I stand up and told them that I'm going to dance a bit. I ordered a glass of vodka from the bartender first and walked towards the dance floor. I started to dance as the music slowed so are my movements. And I saw a pretty guy looking in my direction. He has blond hair and has pale skin. You can tell that he has a nice body beneath that shirt.

He's wearing a black long sleeve turtle neck partnered with a black blazer. And black plain pants and white shoes.

I also looked at him not breaking our eye contact. Then, he approached me. " Hi, you look pretty" the guy whispered in my right ear. " Mhm, thanks. So are you! you look so handsome! ", I whispered next to his left ear seductively. " Can I buy you a drink?" he asked. " Mhm, maybe later!" I tilt my head forward, smirking while I showed him the glass of vodka that I am holding. I didn't talk and wrapped my right arm to his shoulder. I can see his face up close. He looked surprised when I wrapped my right hand around his neck.

Now, that you've mentioned his good-looking features he kinda looks like Xander. His eyes and nose we're very similar to him.

And slowly started dancing seductively as he matched his rhythm to mine and gently wrapped his left hand to my waist.

We talked more. When I decided to go back to our table. I told the guy that I am going back to my table and he just nodded. I started approaching our table but as I walked towards our table I can feel the guy's presence following behind me. **** is he stalking me? I asked myself. That's why I quickened my pace and when I'm already in front of our table there were 2 guys and 1 girl at our table. They're talking to my friends. By partner. I confronted the man I had danced with before " Hey, are you stalki--" what I was about to say was cut short when a man that I didn't know at our table shouted." HEY, CLERVIN HERE!!!". So your name is clervin, huh. Then Clervin just nodded to that man and he looked at me. " What are you going to say? " He smiled at me. I nearly fell for that godly smile. My gosh gain refrain your self. " N-no, nothing! " I told him. " Then, before you my goddess!" He again smiled at me.

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