What am I ?

Now if I lift my eyes I can see the face of father but I knew deep down that he wasn’t him, the familiarity and the coziness I felt around him was long gone by the time and now I can only see a man who’s full of himself and carrying a very ominous aura around and a man who can do anything to achieve something he has laid eyes on, this side of my father has been only seen by two people first “ My dad’s Friend and partner Mr. Hosanna and me “. This is the most well hidden thing in my family, even my mom doesn’t know about it because she’s the only one whom he loves more than anything in the world, I’m also included in the list but he doesn’t wanna show this dark side of him to her because she will be really worried for him and that’s the last thing my father would want my mother to be and so do I, So, I never told this to anyone to this day and I know about this secret of his since I was 8.

Then he spoke in a very husky voice “ So tell me the progress you’ve made it till now” and now I knew that the old saying of love that says Love is a destruction was always true and people are the ones that are stupid... stupid like me who fall in love and then I said after throwing away my thoughts in a pit “ I have got all the schedules and the information of the secret guards of Vasquez Family and I’m trying to get the access of the documents hidden in the family”, I knew this wasn’t something he wanted to know and all this bullshit I created just now was something to run away from the truth that was just so... so hurtful and so hard to cope up with. I lifted up my eyes to see what did my father’s face told and I was in a shock that it didn’t look like in a rage or something but then his lips separated and he said “Natalia you know this is something I did not ask for, right ? “. After this statement I was left speechless I know what he wants I know what he expect from me and I also know I cannot give it to him because what he thinks is a bait to him it is like giving my whole life of to him. I just stared up the carpet not daring to make eye contact with him and suddenly my body gets tensed up and I can feel how I’m losing the control of my body and I can also feel losing the sense of touching the ground from my feet and it’s also starting to feel that my body is starting to levitate free in the air and there’s a rush of pain spreading all over my body.

Now I’m literally levitating in the middle of air and when I lift up my eyes I see my dad standing in front of me and his eyes are literally blood shot, I could see all the veins on his face emerge and I could only stay quite or cry out loud and now even the pain feels surreal. Then a very husky and voice not a voice should say a whisper came in my ears and it said “Natalia, you know I don’t like when people try to change subject and you know this pretty well, right ?”. I groaned in pain because something invisible was clutching my neck so tightly I couldn’t breathe properly but I still managed to say “ Ye....Yes” and then he replied “Then why aren’t you telling me what’s the progress you’ve made ?” , I was speechless and more than that I was not able to breathe it feels like I’m dying and I also think that it will be the best for all of us but also I don’t like my mom crying over me but then somehow the invisible clutching on my neck became a little lighter and my body that was levitating in the air as a foreign object also came to back to it’s place as something thrown down by force. When I touched the couch and feet the floor,I came to a realisation that I was literally crying and then I lifted my face up, terrified to do so but still gathered up some courage to do it, lifted up my gaze and saw my dad as a mess he was groaning in pain and shaking to his toes and then he muttered “get...out get out of here” and I said “what” and he growled so loudly that the whole castle could hear it and I stumbled upon on my feet but still was able to get out of the room and ran towards my bedroom.

After closing up the door I crotched down and started weeping and the scene I saw just saw moments before was so terrifying, the aura my dad passed and the dark vibes his room emitted and the magic he used upon and that sharp instinct of human of saving themselves first coming alive was just so scary, I wish I could have died and freed myself but no I don’t want to be coward or I was good for nothing to my family,So, even if I’d have to suffer I’ll do it I got up from the side of door and walked to the dresser or mirror you say, I watched my face as a whole mess, tears were rushing down my eyes like a river and my lips were literally quivering and my whole face flushed. I then laid down on my bed, staring at ceiling and thinking “Why’d I have to be so stupid to fall in love with that lad and why do have my father order me to kill him, why?”. I just stared and stared at ceiling until I fell asleep.

As a matter of fact 3 things have been cleared up one that “Nate should kill her love or can kill her family peace or better get killed”. So unfair isn’t it but this is how things work in this world.

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