The mission

You know never ever I've imagined it, not even in my wildest dreams not even one but today I totally fucked it up. I'd always thought that I can stop myself from something I hate to do and I did stop myself but this time I just couldn't do it. I could have killed him that time, but there was very sharp pain in my chest and I just couldn't , in thought of mine if I kill him , who will annoy me , who will counter attack me and who's gonna interrupt me , this thought of him always stopped me from killing and apart from that I could see me falling for him.

I lived on a steep bank of a river, it was a quite refreshing yet relaxing view to watch, I've always admired the view and refreshing vibes but I don't know why I'm not feeling it today.

It's like there's something missing , a piece or the whole fraction the place or destination or you can say the motive of something has gone. I was standing beneath a tree , distracted from chaos of world, felt like living in my own imagination or living in surrounded bubble. But then someone pricked it and it popped out, and then I heard someone call my name 'Nate, Nate , Natalia ' , a sudden realisation that someone came I turned towards them, it was my mom , she was very sleek , I don't know why she didn't have a very low diet infact she ate more than my dad but still, she loved jasmines and she also liked jasmine scents and you know she had a very awkardly personality, sometimes she can be very friendly with a person and sometimes she can be mannequin in front of someone, she was and always be a mystery to me. As I turned towards her she gave me glaring look and started mumbling ' Do you even know who many times I've called you, but you ain't listening to me ' . I was in dilemna for what should I say now and I'm like , mom I'm in a rut myself how can I take my mind outta there but instead I said ' Sorry mom, I was just thinking something that took my mind out, lets go' , we both headed towards our father's study, as farther we were it was all good but the nearer we reached the room it became more tensed and it was silenced like hell. My mom left me in front of the mighty door , alone. I remained standing in front of the door, because I knew what my father was going to tell me and I also knew this deep down that I'm not going to do this. I entered in the room, if you see from the point where I'm standing you will see a tall and muscular figure standing in front you , at first coming to this room I was always happy but today I can feel the tension and the nausea feeling. I felt like I should just runaway or a more better option die , but I also knew that a manly woman like my mom will be hurt by this. I didn't know what to do my mind was gone blank and only thing I can remeber was ' HIM'. I never thought he could melt ice like heart of mine.

And now I think.....

' Nate , good you came in time and now sit down and we have to talk about something''. I remained silent coz I knew what he was going to talk'bout, I knew he was going to talk about taking away my peace, I knew he was going to talk about killing my soul away and I knew he was telling me to kill away my existence. How can I let this happen? How can I let someone take my peace very peacefully and then let me live in chaos. I never knew how can this so called 'love' left me in trance and I know nothing what to do. And it's telling me that there are 2 options One "Do" and Second option "Die" and honestly both of them are like a lion's cave to me, because if I Did the first option there's no point of living and if I choose the Second option it will always haunt my soul that I wasn't worthy to born, loved and lived and I know how capable I am and I won't surrender to any of my hoe if I'm my father's daughter. Suddenly a voice called me , it was my Dad, he said "Natalia, you dazed ? Has something bothering you ?", he asked and honestly I really wanted to say " Yeah, Dad something has been bothering me , the person you've asked me to kill is the person whom I love and if I kill him I don't know if I'll have a chance to live on' but I didn't instead of that I said " Nope nothing just some school stuff and yeah.. You called me .. Mom said you wanted to talk to me " and then his expression became dead serious it was like someone just new came here, the softness, the familiarity and the love just vanished away from his face and then he spoke up " Yeah, I wanted to talk about how are the things going for the task I gave you ?"

And the moment of truth came in.

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