Chapter 2: Damian Kai Clinton

Chapter 2

Damian Kai Clinton

It is raining so hard today. I lit up my cigarette as

I look outside the window of the motel I am staying right now. She would be

fine; she loves the rain as far as I know. I breath a heavy sigh as I continued

smoking. It’s like the sky looks on us with sympathy, after all these years I

still can’t believe she did it, she cheated on me. And now I just don’t know if

I love her the same way anymore, but there is something in me that just can’t

let go. Ever since that day I have remorse in her, she had my heart but she

broke it. She had my trust. But after all of it, she stayed in my house and

feed from my money, a gold-digging slut. Cloud, you were never like this

before. I was devastated.

This room feels so empty, I spend my days not going

home. Sometimes I would stay on my office, but sometimes I would go out of my

way to clubs to look for a fucking one-night stand, I have needs too. But I

could never do that again with Cloud haha, how could I? After what she did.

Almost all of my employees know that Cloud and I have broken up. I wouldn’t

clear her name though. I didn’t kick her out too because she was too convenient

for me right now. She would keep the house clean everyday like a maid without

getting paid, food is enough. Before, I would have never treated her like this.

She was my home, my queen and my life. I look like a fool all the time I would

go out of my way to assist her in everything. For me she was a fragile glass,

on our high school years Cloud was the only girl who punched me right in my

face in front of my class. Damn was she strong. After her parents died, she

became too dependable to me. She became different and would cry on my shoulder

almost every single day, so I did my best to care for her more.

That’s just about how fast Cloud could change. That’s

why when she did that, I was surprise, I wasn’t expecting it. But given her

behavior pattern it was somehow reasonable. I find many ways to love her after

that incident but I just couldn’t, I’m just too broken; I need fixing too! I

never allowed her to get out of the house anymore when she’s not with me but

who knows? Maybe, since I am not around too often, she would sneak out and do

shits just like what I do, makes me question what is the point of this

relationship after all. To hurt each other? That’s too sadistic.

If she decided to stop her façade and leave, I would

not dare stop her because that’s what I want as well, I would just look bad if

I leave her first. Call that bullshit but I don’t care, I have the money so

it’s not my lost.

After a while my cigarette session was finally over. I

extinguished the fire by pressing it in the ash tray. The room smelled so nice

because of the woman that I left ***** on the bed. Not as good smelling as her

though, Cloud smell so good but her insides were rotten. Such a waste of a

woman but I didn’t mind, growing up and working my way in winning life as of

now, I learned that the world is too big to waste my time on a woman who

doesn’t deserve it. I had my time of happiness with her but it is all over now.

That’s the bitter truth after I saw her true colors. I wouldn’t say this right

in front of her face though, I knew what she would do then, she would try her

hardest to look pitiful to me tsk.

This woman is really a heavy sleeper huh? It’s already

9 in the morning and she’s still laying on the bed, I didn’t even go that hard

last night. I was annoyed but it would be too rude to wake her up and just

shout of nowhere I’m not that low. So, I just left money on the table, grab my

things and left. This is not the first time it happened, I’ve lost count of how

many women I’ve met and sleep with, not that it matters really.

I drove my car and left the hotel building; I don’t

really have a schedule for today. My secretary, Mr. Miller was working with me

for 5 years now, he naturally became a friend to me and Cloud so he knew our

story midway and how we fall apart and trust me he is so against it. If not for

him I wouldn’t even dare to go home and see that woman. Every now and then he

looks for ways to make a day off for me so that I would be force to go home

since I really have nothing else to do. And today unfortunately is one of those

days.  I looked at my calendar, Sunday,

it means that it has been a week since I last bought supplies and stocks for me

and Cloud. It just became a habit even if I didn’t really spend my weeks there.

That should be enough supplies to last for a week and not starve, but as I

remember every time I go home, Cloud seems to look skinnier. Is she on drugs?

Is she really making a trash out of her life now? She looks so lifeless and

unattractive.

I stop by the market and buy the goods; I don’t really

care but I bought even more that I did before. Not that I care, of course not

but I also take boxes of milk and fruits for energy so she could start a

healthy diet. She wouldn’t have the energy to leave me one day if she always

looks like that right?

I receive a lot of flirt gazes as I walk around the

store, girls will always be girls, eh? How many of them still have decency in

their head tsk. I was showing my card on the cashier lady but she was just

looking at me blushing, what the **** is wrong with her she’s supposed to be

doing her job right now. Not flirting the **** if she sees a handsome customer.

She was blushing like crazy but I got impatient so I put the card in front of

her face right where she could see it. She looked embarrassed, immediately grab

my card and continue doing her job finally. Ha! I bet this girl have a man so I

was so bold to ask. “You have a man, don’t you?” She was shocked by me suddenly

saying a word and nodded her head yes. See haha that’s what I am saying, even

if they have a man already, they wouldn’t even be ashamed to flirt and seduce

another. The transaction was finished with the both of us not saying any word

but he would glance every now and then to me and give soft smiles, tsk,

disgusting.

The rain is still heavy *sigh when will this even

stop? My car is so dirty already. When this nuisance of a rain stops, I will

directly go for a car wash, hopefully it wouldn’t be too dirty that it is

embarrassing by then.

I drive again but this time, home. There are these

annoying butterflies in my stomach that I usually get whenever I come here and

it annoy the shit out of me. Excitement?! My head doesn’t feel that at all but

my body and heart seem to be saying otherwise, my brain still wins though.

Cause there is no reason to be happy at home to see a liar living from my

wealth. As soon as I opened the door using the pass code, I heard a pair of

feet running towards me. It’s her, it’s Cloud. My heart started to beat

unreasonably fast once again as I saw her figure, not looking at me but on the

floor as he whispered just enough for me to hear.

“D-Damian, welcome home” Tsk am I supposed to feel

this happy now!? **** these feelings, this is the sole reason why she could

still hurt me now. Every time I go home, she would put this act like as if she

is so distant from me and would never look me in the eye. I’ve read those

before on social media, it was an act of manipulation, she was trying to make

me sympathize her and she will act even more belittled even if I am not really

doing anything wrong. Though it affects me in a way, I will not, no, I will

never fall for it, she did that to me before and I fall for it, never again am

I gonna fall for such trick and let her win again. I’m not the old Damian she

used to gaslight and control, not this time Cloud.

“Hm, yes take this”. She obeyed me like a dog with

tail between its legs. Those goods are heavy, even I had a hard time getting

those up to the 5’th floor of the building. Back in the days she wouldn’t even

lift a finger with those because I will do everything for her, and she will

protest. Looking at her figure I noticed that she looks like a skeleton now

more than ever, what the **** is happening with her really? Tsk I shouldn’t

care, maybe this is one of her acts. She steadily but slowly organizes the

stocks that she would be eating for a week. I hate what I’m feeling right and I

am trying my hardest to fight it. She just looks… so… weak, like she would

collapse any moment from now. I want to hug her but no. That just means that

I’ve loss.

“W-What would you l-like for meal?” her voice sound so

shaky, I’m losing it right now. If she says another word with a voice like

that, I would run to her and hug her. So instead, I said, “Do whatever you want

to do, you know what I like and don’t like, Cloud” I looked at her, luckily,

she looked away because if she didn’t, she would’ve seen my worried reaction

plastered all over my face, that would just give her hope. I don’t want her

hoping that this could be fix. “I’m really not in the mood for a conversation

today, I’m stressed out just let me be for a while or else I would find some

place to actually be able to relax”, I reason out just so that she would stop

talking to me, any more than that and I would give up.

She didn’t answer, silence means yes, I guess? I

continued watching the television I’m not really focus though because there is

a lingering memory in my head that is just too joyful for me to focus on the

show right now. During rainy days Cloud and I would cuddle in the blankets here

in the sofa with lights off while watching a movie, then it would end up to…

anyways I don’t really like that part, yes, I don’t.  I snap out of my thoughts when something just

doesn’t feel right all of a sudden, I felt a shiver run down thru my spine so I

decided to stand up and pretend to get water from the fridge but then I saw

Cloud with lots of blood in her hands trying to wipe it with her damn apron.

My feet moved on its own, I only realize that I am

standing right in front of her. Without a break, the words just slip in my

mouth “Ugh, I really just wanted to go now! How could you be so clumsy! Are you

that thirsty for attention huh?!” Maybe she really just wanted attention from

me, that’s reasonable but to go to such lengths as to cutting herself! That’s

too much and she fucking won now. How could I just let her be like this when

the cut is too deep?! Damn you Cloud playing with my feelings like this. “What

are you going to do with that? Just letting your blood be a mess all around

this kitchen counter?” If she doesn’t want to move her heavy feet off where she

is standing then I’ll just have to drag her here in the kitchen sink and put

her bloody hand in the fucking water. I rush to our shared room where I haven’t

gone for a while and rummage through the cabinets where I remembered I put our

first aid kit. After getting the kit I ran back to her and silently treat her

wound. I even have to put pressure in it for a while just to stop the bleeding,

how can this be fucking accidental? A cut this deep could only be there if she

intentionally cut it, so she is also an idiot now huh? Screw this.

“There, you happy now?” I heard her mutter a thank

you, almost inaudible to hear, I only sigh in response and again pull her to

the sofa to just fucking sit tight, so that she wouldn’t do anything stupid

anymore. I’m so tired of it by now. “I will cook, you stay there” I was about

to return to the kitchen when she grabbed my hand, I immediately get back my

hand of course, she was also taken aback by what she did but still managed to

say “You—You don’t have to d-do that I-I can still cook f-for you” This girl!

She really is trying her best to get to my nerves huh?! “I didn’t say I want to

do it for you, I’m really just in the mood to cook, don’t assume anything will

you?” She didn’t answer anymore so I continued my way back to the kitchen and

finally start to cook.

I opened the cabinets to look for ingredients and

there I saw. So many stocks! Where did she get all of this? Ho come she have

all this stock but still stay so skinny? Is this the reason why it looks like

we are always having a fucking celebration whenever I arrive here? Does she

work behind my back? To save money before leaving me? There is no wa--- ha I

mean,… I hope she save money real soon so that she could finally leave me

alone. Yes, that’s what I really feel. I finished my cooking fast since I am

hungry already, I haven’t eaten yet. Lucky for this lady she has all the luxury

here in my space, what could she ask for more? A mansion?

I called her so that we could sit on the table and eat

together, not like the old times but I’m really just not use to eating alone.

When I’m at the office Mr. Miller and I would eat together. Sometimes, Lindsey

will come over too, she is so talkative though and I didn’t even care what she

was saying. Cloud on the other hand, I hate to admit it but I like watching her

ever since, how she would just devour in food without saying a word with a face

of contentment, we then would talk about our day after we eat. Everything is

different now though, I look at her and saw her bowing her head, her face

almost touching the plate. What kind of eating position is that? Unlike before,

she doesn’t seem to like her food now. She is so skinny, I can’t help but to look

at the shirt she was wearing, it’s old, I think I brought that for her 2 years

ago, it’s so loose on her. Her shorts also look loose to her and her leg have a

huge thigh gap. I sighed and spoke

“Do you need anything? Ask me now before I change my mind”

she seemed so shock because of that, exaggerated even. Yeah, drop your spoon

tsk. I am expecting her to say new things and such, I have plans on buying her

now though even if she acts so humble and refuse my offer. “U-Um A-Actual-ly

A-A U-Um” yeah just act like, you are having second thoughts I know you want

new stuff brought using my pocket too. “Okay just shut up for now, speak when

you are ready” we both chose to be silent after that. But what she told me

after her silence made my eyebrows furrow. “I need to go to the hospital; I

think there is something wrong with me” Hospital? She does look so skinny and

lifeless if she is really sick then we should go for a checkup I don’t want to

prepare a funeral now. “And what exactly is wrong with you?” if she thinks

there is a problem with her, it is only common sense that she knows or had

already search about it right? The whole building and units have internet

connection. She avoided my question but instead told me “C-could you come with

me?” and there I saw what she is trying to do now haha. ****. My worries are

all for nothing then. Cloud you are such a genius but you’re not gonna outsmart

me now. It really is such a bright idea to pretend to be ill, you are just

waiting for the right time to say it. You want me personally to come with you?

I didn’t even now you were at the hospital back then because of appendicitis.

Maybe she already told and pay the doctor to give a fake result saying she have

a tumor or something. I see right through your plans Cloud.

“I don’t think it was necessary for you to go to a

hospital if it isn’t severe then, just wait for the private doctor to come

here.” That was the best response I could give her; I am observing her but she

didn’t give me that much of a reaction tsk. “As for your second request tho, I

am too busy for that” I’m still observing her reaction but she didn’t react

badly at all. She just nodded her head and continued to eat. Wait what was

that? Is she really sick? No, she’s just making me confuse that’s all. Guilt was

rushing down on me, the same guilt that I felt when I almost slap her back

then. To stop this feeling, I decided to continue with my plan to buy her new

things. That way I would feel less guilty. And if she really is sick then the

dresses would be the settlement.

“I’m going out for a while you could come with me if

you want to.”

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