Hi all again i am back

Hm so i am back i was so happy was getting better but here it goes again bad

Ha ha ha ha

So i lose one more Person

You ou guys know now i don't have anyone in my family who i can share my feelings secret everything Inside me will i use to tell my family my secret but i use to shere my feelings sadness but now i feel i Lost it i am alone i was alone always i use to have my favourite brother but After he left he forgot me he change for him i am annoying same as everyone say i am not childish my brothers use to say i am Better then all of my sister now they say i am worst my father who always hurt me who put other before us mama mama everyone's say Your mom is Your bestie but maybe i use To have it to even though she use to beat me hurt me but still she care ha ha but sometimes she just hurt she say something that never Leave my mind my sister's hm People say sister understand pain of her sister but i think That's lie my 2 big sis use to protect but After she come Ty o Portugal same she forgot me lile other now her favourite is everyone favourite my sister

My big sis ha she maybe she do love me but for her i am always 2nd choice dude i don't want to cry but he hee🤣🤣 i am crying when she use to fight with. My sister who is everyone favourite she use to be with me love me care for me but After she get back with her he heee🤣🤣 she forgot that i exit

I am tired of being 2nd choice i had besti in my childhood i miss her i didn't get to meet her this time sad 🙂 but After 3 she get another friend hee🤣🤣 That's fine she still sit with me have fun with me i was just bad we use to be 3.4 friends i ahve alot but they are most who i use to sit

At hmm🤔 3rd class my 3rd friend Leave the School and he besti became my besti

How bad of me forgot Myself cuz og her i did everything to make her smile happy i became a maid hee🤣🤣 she use to be so mean but me stupid want to be her friend at 5th i give her gift on her birthday al tho she forgot mine but i think she maybe throw it away cuz it was not that good it was hand made jewellery that i mide so hmm🙂 she say to me that i am bad annoying i can't be like her besti she was Better then me maybe she was right i was just her 2n choice to

today my sister again make fun of me with my big sister's and brothers ya i am joke right i joke she always does that make fun of my feelings my talking i hate that i am not joke why why always me my mama father none knows my favourite food how they know cuz of my mom hee🤣🤣 she say i eat to much i do Nothing but eat i stop Eating much i don't feel hungry anymore i use to be 60 something on 6th class now i am 38 something i am not able to eat much the Things i use to like i hate them all whenever i eat she say behind my back i eat only do Nothing other then Eating bro wtf if i don't eat you say i don't eat but when i do i eat to much she even say to die tho not her my sister tgr favourite one she say why you born *i want was brother not you *and i hope you are dead in there hee🤣🤣🙂 i whis that to hee🤣🤣 but see god don't want me so i can't do anything my brother say you are rude bad he was the one Saying i am best now he

Hee🤣🤣🙂 maybe i should stop talking should be silent just like dead body hee🤣🤣 bro there is a secret i can't tell anybody i am scared bro

That secret make me hate People

When someone touch me i hate there touch i get scared by there touch i even feel scared from my own family 🙂🙂 i wish To go back in time and change myself be cold silent

sometimes People hurt me

sometimes my family

sometimes my friends

Where should i go .

should i die no It's haram

Ya allah give me peace

I want to Leave from there

I got you only nobody

So song that just tell what i want

Sometimes I wish I could lend you my eyes

Lend you my hips and lend you my thighs

Sometimes I wish I could take a new shape

Switch out some parts and become a big A

Sometimes I wish I could lend you my ears

Lend you my thoughts and lend you my tears

Sometimes I wish I could take a new form

Switch out some parts and become like the norm

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Who doesn't get bothered by those who don't care

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Who doesn't get bothered by all that's unfair

Unlucky me, who knows way too much

Who fights to make changes and music and such

Unlucky me, aware of the pain

All 'cause I happen to have some brain

Sometimes I wish I could lend you my voice

Lend you my heart and lend you my choice

Sometimes I hope for a savior to come

Who's got what it takes to convince everyone

Sometimes I wish I could lend you my shoes

Lend you my life and lend you my truth

But sometimes the truth is just my point of view

Not what is real and not what is true

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Who doesn't get bothered by those who don't care

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Who doesn't get bothered by all that's unfair

Unlucky me, who knows way too much

Who fights to make changes and music and such

Unlucky me, aware of the pain

All 'cause I happen to have some brain

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Lucky is she, who lives unaware

Unlucky me, who knows way too much

Who fights to make changes and music and such

Unlucky me, aware of the pain

All 'cause I happen to have some brain

Hm sorry guys this strange is Nothing to read i just writte to make me feel Better

So don't read by all i was Going to writte someting happy about how i wss in Pakistan but i just was so

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