Keeping you away

My life can be happy but I choose to keep people further away so I don't hurt them. I know that I shouldn't choose whether or not they should get hurt but I feel like if they do I'm responsible for them getting hurt. So I did what needed to be done.

I talked with my best friend and told him that I didn't want him to go through pain with me that I wanted him to be happy and that he should find someone that can take care of him and make him happy. After that I have never seen or talked to my best friend. I felt sad and

lonely but I knew it was the best that I could do for him.

So, now I perform for the hospital guests and patients. I didn't feel as lonely but I did attempt suicied a couple of times just to see if my best friend would

come back but he didn't. I just gave up and turned into the girl who went mentaly ill.

After two years past a person came to visit me and told me that my best friend was sent to a hospital in Chicago because he had gotten diagnosed with lung cancer. The person told me that he decided to smoke at the age of 19 and had been smoking for two years. I told her to send him a vid that I made for him a year ago and to tell me after the video finished so that I could video call him after words.

The person had left and before she left she had told me that she was

his sister and that she wanted to keep on living and not to give up on life. 24 hours later I get a text from his sister and she tells me that he doesn't believe I'm still alive. So I decided to give my best friend a video

chat call and he answered. I was surprised that what she had said was true and I was sad at the same time, so sad that I started to cry once he answered the phone.

We talked and I asked him what had caused him to start to smoke and he said it was because I had told him I didn't want to be his friend anymore and he thought it was because he was being a bad friend. Then I told him that he was really dum cause that wasn't why I had stopped being friends with him, and this was the last

thing that I wanted for him.

From then on we were best friends but then one day he asked if I wanted to be his girlfriend and I told him yes but only if he got better for me and he did. He moved back to Los Angeles hospital and we would walk around together. Sadly when it was my 23 birthday I had a bad day. My best friend/boyfriend died because of a heart attack that

was caused by his lungs, they were not letting him breathe. From then on I just was not happy but then I found this place called Im Fine.

The End

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