The lover

Love hurts more than it should

Today he seems to find me bearable.

Love is still here.

Love was never gone.

Asked him why.

Why did he leave me?

He made me cry saying" because I deeply love you"

It hurts when I know it's true. I wish he had cheated but he didn't.

No, he stayed loyal.

My love forgive me.

My love forget me.

I used to think only the actions known to this day as unethical could be hurtful.

But watch him.

May the world see him.

His love hurts. It's not the pain he brought by cheating or playing with my feelings but the love he showed that brought the most painful scars.

He would have scolded the shit out of me if he knew I did it again.

I have new wounds, but today they don't hurt at all.

Today I feel lighter. Even if I cry it's not against anybody. I've been cursing the world for letting me breathe, but I'm grateful I lived to hear his words.

Now all I ask is grace from God. Take me away and may I never come back if it's not to be in his arms.

Wish I could still call him babe.

He would call me pumpkin.

But I know he's got to move on.

find someone better.

One day he'll have a lovely wife but she won't have my name.

His daughter will have his eyes and his wife's smile.

And his son?

I bet he'll be nothing like his dad.

He'll be the lookalike of his mom.

His heart?

I hope it doesn't suffer like mine.

well mine is dead but I hope his will be full of joy.

Love is supposed to be pure and everlasting.

ours was all that, just not accepted.

In hopes we can be together in another life, I'll let myself die even though I'm already dead inside.

He won't let me though. He guessed that I cried. He knew.

I hate that he knows.

why?

Because he's not mine anymore.

One day he'll be hers.

Hers?

It hurts.

I'm sorry. I'm selfish but I want him for me. That's where he belongs. Nowhere else.

I'm crazy in love.

Maybe too much?

But no love is enough for him.

Babe forgive me but I think nobody is going to love you as much as I do.

So, don't love anybody as much as u loved me.

Love them more or love them less. Just not like you loved me.

I love you always.

But I'm forced to quit. If I'm dead before you get married, I want to reincarnate as a dog. A white fluffy dog. With small legs and a cute tail. Wide doe eyes and bouncy ears. Then you can bring me home. It would be nice being in your arms again.

Until then, take care sugar plum.♡

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