The beginning of everything.

My name is Yuu Ishida, I am currently 17 years old, and I am in high school, and oddly enough, I am in love with my teacher. I know that many people would say that this is wrong and that it could never work, but I want to make it happen.

My teacher is called Suzan; she wasn't even 30 years old, but I never asked her that. She currently teaches math. I'm in the middle of her class right now.

I have to say that I'm already close to her. Usually, she talks to me a lot, or maybe I'm just forcing her to speak to me since I only get close to her and start talking about some things.

'Maybe she is just talking to me out of pity, as she would not like to leave me talking alone, but I think she would not do that.'

Even though I am a bit of a severe teacher at times, I have come across some cute moments from her, but when she found out that I had seen her, I thought I would be threatened.

You may ask me if I fell in love with her beauty or for another reason, well, I must say that she is lovely, maybe she is the most beautiful woman I have ever met, but something about her is different.

I feel that she is not the way she acts, this is not her proper way of acting, she seems to be hiding her real personality, and it made me curious about her, and after approaching and watching her for a long time, I started to fall in love with her.

Maybe it's a stupid teenage love that will fade over time, but I don't want to leave school without even trying to do something about it.

I'm currently in my senior year of high school, so I don't know if I'll see her after graduating, so this year is the last I have to try to declare myself to her or something, but it won't be that easy.

Even approaching her a few times to talk, I am still a person who is ashamed very quickly. I can't even imagine declaring myself to her; when I start to imagine it, I start shaking with shame.

But this is not what scares me the most. What scares me is the fact that I can be rejected, and of course, it is the most likely to happen. I don't know if a teacher like her would be with a student.

Sometimes people say, it's better not to declare yourself than to be rejected, but I don't know if I agree with that. Isn't it better to be rejected and lose hope than to hide your feelings and then walk away without saying anything?

I have to make up my mind soon.

"I need to find a way to declare myself to her, but how do I do that?" I said while placing my hand in front of my mouth. I think I spoke too loudly; my colleague, who was sitting next to me, started to laugh. I just looked at him and smiled.

But it took me a while to know the reason for his laughter until I looked ahead and saw the teacher in front of me while looking earnestly at me.

Glup ~~

I swallowed, and then I started to feel my heart racing with time. Shit, that's the side effect of being in love. I've thought it a few times before while talking to her.

Badump ~~

Badump ~~

I lowered my head a little and started to wail in my mind, damn it, she's here, did she hear anything? Do I have to pretend I didn't say anything, but I don't think it's too late now?

"Could you stop thinking about your school novels and pay attention in class?"

"I'm sorry ..." The only thing I could do was to apologize and keep my head down. I was embarrassed at that moment.

HAHAHAHA ~~

The whole room started laughing at that, and when I looked at the teacher, she had a satisfied smile on her face. Wait a moment, did you want to embarrass me? Why?

"Hey, stop getting all in love there and pay attention in class." The teacher had already left my face and was continuing her class, and the person who sat across from me turned to say that, well, and who is that person? Her name is Alice, basically my childhood friend.

I have studied with her since I was little, and a few years ago, she moved to the front house, so we got close enough.

In many works, people fall in love with their childhood friends, but I was never attracted to her. It is strange if I follow the logic of anime; she also never gave a sign that she likes me.

"I'll be careful," I said as I put my finger on his head and pushed a little forward.

"Stop it."

"Hehe," I liked to play with her during class, but I think it's better to stop doing that. I don't want the teacher to show up here again. If I do something stupid, she can find out everything.

Imagine just receiving a rejection before you even declare yourself?

***//***

"So, who are you going to declare yourself to?"

"Stop it, and I'm not going to declare myself to anyone."

"Hmm, you don't know how to lie, you are all flushed."

"Leave me in peace."

It was time for lunch. I was sitting at one of the tables with Alice. We usually always eat together, sometimes some friends show up, but today we are alone.

She could stop playing with me like that. I feel ashamed to talk about love with her. I think anyone would be like that, speak to a woman about love, even more so a close friend.

'There would be no problem talking... "I looked at her, and then she looked at me, and I turned my face away.

"Wait, don't tell me that you finally fell in love with me?"

"No, it will never happen."

"You fell in love with me, come on, declare yourself."

"I didn't fall in love with you, that's enough, everyone is looking at us."

"So what? Let them look, so they'll know that you fell in love with me, hehe" She had a sarcastic smile on her face, that's why I never fell in love with her. I get angry with her quickly.

Well, it's even fun to play with her like that, I won't deny that.

"Okay, time to go back to the living room, you two there, stop flirting, and hurry up." As soon as we finished eating, someone appeared behind our chairs. When I looked, there she was.

The teacher was standing there looking at us with threatening eyes. Wait, we didn't do anything, we were talking, but even so, she is irritated for some reason.

Maybe she is still angry with me because of what happened earlier in class? I hope she forgets that.

"Alright, come on, Yuu." Alice took my hand and pulled me along with her; when I looked at the teacher's face, she was still looking at us with those eyes, but I could see that she was also with an empty look. She seemed a little sad.

I wanted to know what is going on in her head right now. I need to find some way to be alone with her. It will only be a little tricky.

'Wait, I had an idea.'

"Hey, stop being flustered like that, I'm going to kiss you." As soon as I came to, I realized that we were already inside the classroom, and Alice had her face in front of mine.

"Shit." I pulled away at the same time as I felt my heartbeat rapidly. It scared the **** out of me.

"HAHAHA."

"Were you going to kiss me?"

"Of course not."

She sat in her seat as if nothing had happened. I don't even remember how I got to the room. I remember Alice pulling me and the teacher's face.

I wanted to know why she had that empty look.

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