CHAPTER ONE [CHILDHOOD]

Hii.Im known as Aurora

I am fifteen and still with no friends, its embrassing to say though. When iwas born my mom died and my father hate me because of that.he alys blame me for that and yeah I agree with him.i just dont know why on the earth I'm so unlucky,iwish iwas at heaven with my mom so I could get rid of all the troubles.im tired .I'm really tired. I need some rest.

Until now my dad havent spoke a single word to me , all he does is frownd and ignore me everyday .you might be thinking how is it possible living in the same house and not talking at all.I dont know neither.I'm so confuse too, how he manage to do that?.when ever I tried to say something to him , he directly ignores me and be busy in some activities or he acts as if im invisible but how come ican see my own reflection at the mirror.he wont hear anything though ishout at him like I wassa talking to the walls.

idont know when will he accept me as his daughter.Ithink he wont even in next generation and iknow idont deserve it. iwas taken care by a nanny and she is so adorable.She was good enough to me and was like my mom but still than Ienvy my classmates when their parents come at school and care about their child.iwant to know how it feels to be loved and cared by parents..I'm so envious but all I can do is watch them.

The nanny who took care of me until now,who was my godmother died at a car accident all because of me.After the school when iwas heading back home crying because ilost my only bracelet my dead mom left behind was lost.iwas so careless that I nearly got hit by a car .Fortunately my godmother saved me.Her leg have been badly injured that she couldnt stand and iwas helping her but suddenly she push me and the big truck hits her and she died on the spot.iwas unconscious when iwoke up and i found out that the only person who was with me was dead all because of me.

whyyy!why!why!godddd!!!!

all the people whom icare and those who care die saving me,leaving me alone In this samsara world.From that day iwas so hopeless to live.there was no reason to live .i worried that iwill hurt the person who is care about me will land up leaving me alone like everyone did.so ipromise to myself to stand by myself and not to bother others.

Some of them even thought iwas orphan at school because my dad never show up at parents teacher meeting and other programs helded at school even though its important.When I asked him about them he simply said he is ashamed to be called me as her daughter,who is such a ugly duckling.that's was the first time he spoke to me iwas happy at the same time sad.I dont know how I was feeling.It was a mixed feeling.It's better to say I'm orphan than saying ihave a dad who totally hates me and will never love me.

7 yr passed and nothing changed.My dad still hates me and worst thing is ihave to attend classes.Till now i havent got a single friend because they all were afraid of me that they will be affected by my misfortune and now ihave to go to school and deal with so many different people .idont know whether they gonna accept me?ithink they will also ignore me like others did .its alright iam used to it.My own dad hates me , why would other people like to hang out with me?? there hundreds and millions question in my head still ihave no one to ask for advice and idont know what iam gonna do in future.

School started and now it's been 3 years and Iam 10yrs old now . People at my age lives with their parents and make lots of friends and enjoy alot and I'm still here alone like iwas always.My dad got a new wife and they obviously dont want to be responsibility for me . they want to start a new life and have a baby and live happily without me.yeah! okey iwont interfere their happiness.

My dad spoke to me for the second time .he said he wants to cuts all the ties between us. just because of that woman?How could he do such things to his daughter? 'he is the most terrible dad I met in the world,uh not dad most terrible unfaithful person.'ilaughed looking at myself in the mirror seeing how pathetic iwas.

Though I knew this day gonna come still than I cant take !!!!

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