Good Day to you all READERS!!
First I would like to introduce my humble self, as I don't think you would want a nameless character as your narrator, now do you? My name is Janes Vert, and I am 21 this year. I live in [I will leave it to your preference because I don't know places that much myself]. I am an only child, and to be honest with that I am a lost cause too. I will just attach the things related to myself below, you can read it if you want to get to know my character better.
NAME: JANES VERT . [not given by me]
AGE: 21 [that's how much I have suffered]
BOD: B+ve [mosquitoes are my vampires, sorry]
HEIGHT: 5'3
[they say I'm small]
WEIGHT: 53 Kg [I weigh just like my problems]
GENDER: FEMALE [did you thought otherwise]
MBTI: INFP [I am red, don't wanna admit, wear rose-tinted glasses yall~]
HOBBY: THINKING, SINGING, WRITING & READING POEMS.
LIKES: INTERESTING THINGS.
DISLIKES: MY EXISTENCE.
DREAM: TO BE AN OFFICE WORKER [earn money in bulk (can I get some money)]
As the narrator of this story, how I wish I could tell you all my majestic and unique qualities, shame I've got none[ha ha ha], don't get too disheartened though, we will make up for it along our way. But, I can still share some of my bad and good qualities with you! let's start with the good ones because bad ones are more interesting so let's savor it down later the line. My good qualities would include, me being able to sympathize with others easily and not hurting their feelings, a good listener, I am very open-minded, I am very loyal too, other than these I can't really say anything on the matter, I mean I do like many things, and I am good at being alone too, but those do not really fit well with the topic quality right?
Then, moving on we've got my bad qualities: I am a pushover, I don't really take good care of myself, don't have a healthy boundary, sometimes I can be overreactive and sensitive, and then clash with my own beliefs, bad at communicating, hate being criticized, I get hurt easily, can't really go against other people [not wanting to fight, trying to maintain the balance], not prioritizing myself, in simple words hardcore people pleaser. There can be many more of which I am yet to be aware of. Still, if I have to choose or pick something I absolutely hate about myself, it would be that I can't really communicate my own discomfort to others. One such example would be, when I get sick, I don't get what is wrong or where it is hurting me, how do I describe the pain, and so I keep silent about it enduring it the best I can. And that is my problem, if someone asks me where it is hurting or am I okay or not, I get annoyed because I can't really answer them. I hurt them, I know they care about me, but I can't help it being like this I can't really understand my pains too, I can't find any words to describe them, while I endure the pain and people ask me I just stay silent because I don't want to blurt out words I don't really mean at the moment and hurt them, but being silent only increases their worries and questions, being frustrated from all of this how do you think I could say nice things. I feel so pathetic that I am like this, and that I can't seem to change this no matter how much I try. I am just so sorry!!
Enough of the depressing stuff, and to lighten up the mood we will now discuss my likes and dislikes in order.
Like:
I like sour and spicy things, vegetables [except cucumber], reading, writing, singing, talking to myself, imagining things especially about world destruction, dark magic or fantasy creatures lol. my favorite colour is blue, though I like every colour but after blue I am into maroon. I am a cat person, but am also a dog person. I like owls in birds, wolves in wild animals, in mythical/fantasy: nine-tail fox, sirens, vampires; I like dark magic like necromancy, witches, magics. In weapon: archery, daggers, sniper, string, etc. long range ones. For class: assassins, mage, demon, villain[because I am too good I would like to be bad for once]. I like beautiful and cute things, I like collecting things, collecting flowers or leaves and pressing them for decorations; performing skits, playing chess[I am not good at it though], word games, drawing too, but I am not good at it, I like handicrafts and want to learn them, such as crocheting, knitting, embroidering, and clay pots, and many more. I like finding meanings, new words, understanding feelings, and stuffs.
Dislikes:
The things I respectfully don't like would be, the vegetable cucumber, the fruit chikoo, forcing me/ when someone orders me around, nosy people, rude ones, and cheaters/abusers, as a picky eater other than egg and chicken [that too once in a while] no meat or fish, doing chores, oh I forgot to mention I foremost HATE!! my existence, and other than that I don't like mingling with people as a fellow introvert. Don't like going outside my room, going outside drains my energy soooooo..... much, I hate it!!
That's all for now, we will now move on to something else,
Some of my poems:
1. I would love to fall for your hateful remarks,
like as if I could never understand the malice behind.
but, so far I couldn't bring myself to tell
as I wept in silence
for it becomes too much to bear.
how can one be so cruel
do they not care to know what words can do?
Are they not aware, how sharp their blades embadid the wounds
Even a sturdy wall can crumble down
if someone keeps picking at the cracks.
And, I am not that strong to begin with,
don't hurt me
becuase I cannot bring myself to blame you.
If you just stay silent,
maybe it can be more peacful.
2. Blue
I sat this place alone,
Sober through all.
Feeling drowned in me.
What's this feeling called?
The hushness is so loud.
But theirs a whirlwind in me.
These emotions mixed up,
Are creating a deep sea!
I'm floating upon my feelings.
While the dark clouds are hovering upon me.
Ready to Pierce me by,
The drops of its truth, I wish to escape sometimes.
This melancholy vibes keeps me in check.
I tried to flee this prison of sand.
Which will be falling soon,
But I am trapped in this feeling of blue.
3. L'Espoir
Sometimes you'll find, tranquility in pain.
The grey clouds who honours your emotions,
will help you let it go through their rain.
The emulsion of confusion
or the meadows with the rays.
After the various storms,
still awaits a new day.
Even if you're eccentric.
Or close to the perfect stage.
Just believe in your beauty
you're the world's unique taste.
4. Waiting for you!
Wanted someone to be my green,
But everyone came by as blue.
Like a strong current of tide
Destroying that feeble line I drew.
I was getting used to some
But now we are apart too.
now, nothing is going the right way.
I am waiting for the time to fly
Until it reaches a moment new.
5. And in the hands of future,
we painted the skies.
Now,
Some are trying to reach it.
And some are just looking
with unknown desire in their eyes.
That's all for now.
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This chapter is getting boring, and I know, it was not that entertaining, I am sorry, I don't really have much of writing experience, I am still a novice, I'll try to make your read more fun, and unfortunately I would like to end today's chapter here, as it is getting a little hard for me to make a head or tail out of this one. Again I am very sorry.
See you at next chapter, BYE~~
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