Ch1: My Late June

In the late June, when the rain was unstoppably pouring down, covering everything with the sound of its heavy drops like millions of beating drums, it all started then!!

I remember, I could hear every odd rain's drop matching the loud thumping of my palpitating heartbeat, and the "red" sensation on my cheeks felt so wild when, anywhere else could feel the monsoon's jittering cold breeze brushing against the lukewarm skin bringing up a weird sensation, could say. It was all so peculiar! The gloomy scenery just outside the windowpane now seemed tempting, a stark contrast to my thoughts just moments before; a stupid but desperate wish to accelerate my jammed feet towards that uncertain destination above, which we all pictured in our heads, and to reach there, I had to take the risk of diving down from that window (yes…exactly, it is heaven dear). But!!…but!, unfortunately I couldn't possibly do that, common guys I am not brave enough to face that hurdle yet, aka. coward. Yeah!! Well on to the topic again, all of this expected unexpectedly things happened when a person came up to me…

           "hey! umm…… I am ______\, and I wanted to say something"

yes, and what do you expect from a fool in this kind of situation, what do you think they'll do? I just exactly did that!! (ha...ha...ha...) [to be honest, I don't really remember their name, kinda bad with name and faces!(heh) sorry to that person, but hey! I did remember this situation though]. I said, *'yes, what is it?' WOW! just before this I was frozen like a popsicle, my eyes were frantically moving like a half-dead zombie in awkwardness, or like when you are busy avoiding the teacher's gaze when they ask a question, but you don't know shit! mmm... that's how it was. I bet that person might have thought I was a weird one or was wrong in the head. But, do I care? I don't! (a part of me does!, boohoo.....).*

             "umm… I silence more silence some more silence"

 […. 10 YEARS LATER …. ]

(JOKE, IT IS A JOKE, SORRY, JUST, AM TOO CHRONIC ON THE INTERNET)

CONTINUATION:          "really like you".*

then what? what am I supposed to do?! [my internal monologues were shaking so gravely, they were on rampage going wild] WHAT THE HELL KIND F SITUATION IS THIS??? is what might've been my invisible real expression was expressing.

**FLASHBACK:     a merrily thought of mine once upon a time: *'I will reject all who confess to me! not that it will ever gonna happen, like what is the probability of it really happening, seriously (scoffs), I know myself well come-on, with my personality it is close to impossible'

BREAKING INSIDE THE FLASHBACK: **IS WHAT I THOUGHT BACK THEN!!!

                                                             END OF FLASHBACK

Now, now, now... it really happened someone did actually confess to me!! they said that they like me(--''). [that's a serious problem, what is wrong with you, seriously, me, YOU⇾ like ME⇽, why?, no really, why?] what am I supposed to feel about this plot line, I am no main character, and this is not even a shara la la la la moment, I can't even see any background flowers you can usually witness in those comics. What do I say? was the only thing continuously being ranted like a spell, and probably if this was included in a comic the background scene would be filled with it. I did say that I would reject them all, the problem lied with HOW?, to come all the way not knowing how to actually reject the said person, ha ha funny!, ERROR, PLEASE FIX IT,   ERROR   ERROR!!! SHUTTING DOWN PLEASE WAIT.

No problem I've got some ways to deal with this very situation, thank me later you stupid brain.

WITH CAUTION: WAYS TO REJECT SOMEONE:

1. Lie with white teeth: I am sorry\, I have a partner.

2. Apologies like your life depends on it: pardon\, this is so sudden I am so sorry\, but...uh... sorry....(honestly idk myself about this one).

3. Spew full-blown nonsense to not hurt their feelings: I really appreciate it\, I am sorry\, but I don't really feel the same way\, I will have to turn you down\, then if you excuse me.

4. Savage: I don't like you SILENCE (then walk off)⇾ yeah the attitude and then walk off one lmao.

 Thanks for learning such valuable lessons from me!('- _ -'/)

Sadly, my personality does not allow me to be rude to others, or I would've gone along with the fourth option. I know, I know, such a shame, but if you are curious as to what this deranged personality which mimics to be sane chose, then, it is the meek one. The third one, I just rambled that.

I honestly believe this could very well can be included in my bravery record or accomplishments. If possible I would like to even include this in my bio-data! unfortunately that's a no-go. (The big fishes who overlook the resumes won't applaud this knight's much accomplished unexpected fit, they won't accept my bravery~ someone once said that, that someone is me).

So, with much accomplishment I somehow passed that hurdle, and now I got to remember this "historic legendary first confession happening moment" as an untouched surface of that scorching sun, which is better left untouched then getting burnt with shame again.

                          With this, we ought to finish this chapter, see ya'll next chapter, Bye~~~

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