I AM HIM
The soft chime of the bell echoed through the quiet showroom of Milana Gowinies, a luxurious boutique tucked away in the heart of New Orleans. Behind the front desk sat Terry Penfield. At twenty-seven, Terry possessed a striking, handsome face framed by an aura of absolute innocence—the kind of look that instantly disarmed strangers. Usually, his lone employee, Paul, would be managing the floor, but today Terry was entirely on his own.
When the door swung open, Terry looked up. A young woman stepped into the boutique. She was in her mid-twenties, radiating a natural elegance that caught him completely off guard.
*Who are you?* Terry thought, his chest tightening in sudden amazement.
As she began wandering through the racks, running her fingers over the evening gowns, Terry stepped out from behind the desk to approach her. The exact moment their eyes met, the world seemed to slow down. Terry froze in his tracks, captivated.
*You’re so beautiful,* he thought, a genuine, warm smile spreading across his face.
"So, let me guess," Terry said, breaking the silence with a smooth, welcoming tone. "Is it for a big date, or is it your wedding?"
The young woman smiled, a faint blush creeping onto her cheeks as she brushed a stray lock of hair behind her ear. "Not really, but close. It’s a homecoming."
Terry watched the movement of her hand. *First you blush, and now you’re touching your hair,* he thought, his mind racing with a quiet, intense satisfaction. *Are you telling me I could be your date, or what?*
Aloud, Terry’s smile widened. "Okay, I know just what you waited for. Come with me."
He led her toward a transparent display wardrobe. Hanging inside on a rushed hanger was a slick, pristine white gown that seemed to catch the ambient light of the shop.
The young woman’s eyes widened. "Wow. This is the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen."
Terry opened the wardrobe door, his eyes locked on her face. *No, you’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. Who are you?*
"This is a ball gown, AKA the Cinderella dress," Terry explained smoothly. "I think this will fit you perfectly. You’re gonna look even more beautiful in it." He noticed her blush deepening at the compliment. "It could also make you look incredibly sexy, especially when you keep on smiling."
She let out a hearty laugh, the tension fully melting away. "You are good at convincing people to buy your stuff. That’s cute and bold."
Terry smiled back, but behind his eyes, a calculated certainty settled in. *She thinks I’m cute and bold just because I complimented her on being hot. She’s the one.*
"Olivia," she said, offering her hand to him.
Terry’s smirk was playful as he hesitated. "Oh, sorry. I don’t give out my name to beautiful girls." Olivia laughed again, amused by his confidence. "Because, usually, it’s a trap."
"And... do you think I am in that category of girls?" Olivia asked, raising an eyebrow playfully.
"Beautiful?" Terry asked. She nodded. "I think you’re their top general."
Olivia laughed heartily at the response, and Terry finally took her hand, wrapping his fingers firmly around hers.
"Terry... Terry Penfield," he murmured, his smirk returning as she smiled back at him.
After Olivia officially selected the stunning white ball gown, Terry carefully took the delicate fabric over to the counter to package it securely.
"She is one of my favorites," Terry said, smoothing down the garment bag. "So take care of her."
Olivia smiled, leaning against the counter. "God, you’re such a nerd. Okay, how?"
Terry looked at her, his internal monologue twisting her amusement into something much deeper. *You love me because I’m a nerd. You try so hard to pretend to be Miss Popular, while deep down, you’re just the exact opposite of popularity. Your face says it all.*
"Treat your gowns like treasure," Terry instructed with a soft smile, handing the package across the counter. "Cover her, keep her dry, and give her room. She’ll return the favor when you need to shine."
"Wow, you’re unbelievable," Olivia smiled, taking the bag. "Thanks. Have a nice day."
Terry waved a polite goodbye as she walked out into the New Orleans afternoon. But as the door clicked shut, the silence of the shop rushed back in, and his gaze lingered on the empty doorway. The encounter pulled a thread deep within his consciousness, dragging his mind backward into the shadows of a memory from twenty years ago.
He was only seven years old, a young Terry playing in the living room with his two older siblings, Julia and Henry. The door had opened, and his mother, Sarah, entered alongside her sister, Kyler. They weren't alone; they had brought a twenty-six-year-old woman with them named Soniya, who was of half-Indian descent.
"Soniya," Sarah had called out to the young woman, introducing the children. "These are my kids. Julia is the eldest, Henry is the second, and round my last but not least, Terry." Soniya had smiled, giving a polite wave to the children.
But the memory shifted to the darkness of that same night. A young Terry had crept out of his shared bedroom, rubbing his eyes as he walked down the hallway to use the bathroom. When he pushed the door open, he was startled to find Soniya sitting on the floor, tears streaming down her face.
"Soniya?" Terry had whispered.
Shocked and exposed, Soniya quickly wiped her face. "I am not crying. Go back to bed."
"I saw you," Terry insisted innocently.
The innocence of a child was a threat to her. In a sudden flash of anger, Soniya stood up, her grip tightening painfully around his small arm as she dragged him toward the door. "Stop being so fucking nosy and leave!"
She stopped when she saw the immediate sadness and fear pooling in seven-year-old Terry's eyes. As the boy turned to retreat, a dark, manipulative shift occurred within Soniya. Realizing the power she held, she spun Terry back around to face her. Without warning, she leaned down and kissed the seven-year-old boy directly on the mouth—a confusing, deeply inappropriate violation disguised as affection.
Terry stood entirely frozen, his mind unable to comprehend the boundary that had just been shattered. "What... did you do?" he asked in utter surprise.
Soniya smirked, her voice dropping to a soothing, toxic purr as she planted the seeds of psychological grooming. "Something good and special. Now don't tell anyone about it. We could be having fun every night here, right?"
Desperate for approval and the comfort of a connection he didn't understand, Terry smiled happily. "You could teach me how to arrange the puzzle box, right? I don't want Julia and Henry to keep defeating me."
Soniya’s smirk widened, knowing she had successfully trapped him in a cycle of secrecy and emotional abuse. "Yes, my Terry. I will do that... only if you keep everything as a secret." The young boy had smiled and nodded, completely unaware of how deeply that secret would warp his understanding of love and intimacy for the rest of his life.
The memory faded, snapping back to the sharp glare of a laptop screen in the present day.
Terry was no longer in the boutique. He was sitting in the university cafe at the University of New Orleans, the ambient chatter of students echoing around him. His fingers moved methodically across the keyboard as he meticulously observed Olivia’s life from afar.
"You are a freshman," Terry muttered under his breath, his eyes scanning the data on the screen. "You are living in the campus hostel. You have a roommate."
With a few precise clicks, he pulled up the roommate's social media profile. "Your roommate, Darby... she is a popular girl. Not like you. But you always pretend to like that lifestyle."
Terry stared intently at Olivia's pictures, a dark, assured smile spreading across his face as he closed the browser. *But it's a lie. That is why you need me to be your lover.*
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Fatima Suleiman
Incredible work! Keep it up 👍🏼 🥰
2026-06-04
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