Waking up

Suddenly I opened my eyes. I was back to reality. I still couldn't believe what had happened. There were many questions storming my brain but the first thing I did was get up and looked into my mirror. I was injured. I had bruises all over my body. Some scratches and my knees had dried blood. My clothes were all ripped and dirty. How could it have happened? It was all a dream. I have always lived these nightmares but for the first time it was real. I went there. I witnessed it. I felt it. I lived it. I went into the ABYSS.

I started having these dreams for when I was 13. I remembered that day my parents were fighting and I cried myself to sleep. I was never a person who would let out everything on table. I was always the person with smile on my face. I liked it though but I was a complete different person when I was alone but I guess that was the real me. I was always surrounded by friends because I had a bright personality I never had any enemies. But one the curtains closed I was alone. I have always been. I only let people know me how much I wanted them to. I kept them at a safe distance. Not to long not to close. I thought this was best for me which had turned out to be the best. I never had any one but then it happened or rather "he" happened and turned my life upside down and then I fell straight in Abyss and kept falling deeper and deeper and who would have thought I found my home in this void, Abyss.

But will my life get better? Can I really find a reason to live. A purpose, a motive to let go of all my grief and be happy. Find my true happiness. But the question the arises first in my mind is Do I really deserve this? Deserve to be happy. I had always thought that sorrow can never harm the heartless. I was fine even though I wasn't happy but I was also never sad. I had a neutral attitude and had always kept myself calm and collected in all situations. I excelled in all the work I did. Singing, Dancing, Acting, Storytelling, Sports and academics there was never a thing that I couldn't do but still I couldn't find my passion.

Ultimately I decided to let go of everything and just focus on academics.

I had a plan in my mind find which I had to follow. I would only focus on my studies and keep an average score. Be neutral to everyone and never be in spotlight to avoid unnecessary problems. Given my personality I never had to worry about dating it was out of question. I could never trust anyone. Even my shadow. After I graduate I will get a stable job in a company and then later livey life peacefully. This was what it was supposed to happen. But my life took a unexpected turn. The day I fell. Hard.

***Download NovelToon to enjoy a better reading experience!***