Prologue and Chapter One

Sunlight headed into my room from the glass window and was playing on my face. That was very irritating and that broke my sleep. I tried to sleep again as I wanted but couldn't so, I get up. I looked straight to the wall on my left side and it was 8 "o" clock. I get up from the bed and walked towards the window. Pulled the curtain to cover the window fully and suddenly, my eyes fall outside the window. The pink rose plant which was, I planted a few days ago now smiling with a new fresh blossom of one pink rose and it makes me smile. I was observing that glow and beauty so deeply full of my eyes. I rushed to click that moment with my phone and it was so soothing. I posted it on my Instagram page with a caption, "New Hope". I came back to my room looking into the phone and my phone rang. That was Meghana,

"Hey...Rhea. Congratulations, we earn it," she said.

I was a little confused about what she is talking about so, I asked her again, "I...I won't understand what you are saying".

"You remember. We have applied for, "The Shimmer" magazine," she said.

"Ohh... Yeah, I remember," I replied.

"They approved...They like your photos and called you tomorrow," she said in a joyful voice and I was jumping with happiness.

"Be ready at 11 a.m. tomorrow," she said and cut the phone.

"Okay," I said and put the phone on the bed.

I was so much happy with full of my soul. I was staring at my awards and achievement which I earned throughout the academic as well as from various beauty pageants in which I had participated. They were perfectly arranged in the wooden cupboard. I was thinking about my approval for "The Shimmer" because I was trying so hard and waiting for this opportunity for a very long time. After my breakdown with Sameer, I completely lost myself and was in depression while I chose to take a break from all this that was a long one but I handled myself and recover with the help of Almighty. Thanks to my family that they supported me so much during this otherwise, I couldn't able to achieve this all.

During my final, I get offered by various local brands and shops for promotional purposes. Soon, I started getting offered by reputed agencies. I worked continuously for about two years and then everything changed. Because of several up and down in my marriage, the situation forced me to take a break. That was the worst time of my life from which I went through. I was totally broke and stressed that I didn't understand what to do and because of this, I shove away big opportunities. But now, everything was on track. I came to from my thoughts, looking at those awards and achievements I smiled. I went to the washroom to get a refresh. After getting refresh, I wrapped myself in a towel and emerged from the washroom. I walked to the cupboard and opened it.

Suddenly, I heard the sound that something falls on the floor from the cupboard when I was searching for my pink crop top. I kneel down to find what was that and it was the ring box that was open and the ring was missing. It might be rolled out from the box when it falls. I bend over to see the ring and I found it near the bed. I take it in my palm and wrapped it with my finger. I literally felt emotional because it was with me for the past several years. The past started recalling in my mind, "Happy birthday to my dear loving wife". When we were newlywed and it was my first birthday after marriage. I burst into tears and made me fell down onto the floor. My heart was wrecked by the pain of past memories. The grief which was stored in my heart under the balloon of smile was coming out which I couldn't resist. Every single moment and his face was scrolling one by one in my mind's eyes.

I moved a little near the bed and leaned. I tried to handle myself. I wipe my face and tears. Taking a deep breath in, I breathe out all the sorrow and tried to get relax. I put that ring in the box and closed it. With that box, I also tried to close all those past, memories, and grief which was piercing my heart one by one like an arrow. I get up and placed that box in the cupboard in a safe so, again it will never fall down from the cupboard. I closed the cupboard and went to the washroom. Standing in front of the mirror I looked into it to myself, to my face. My eyes were glistening wet and my eyelashes were stuck together. There was a sadness on my face that washed out all the happiness. We were not together but I waited for him and still was waiting unaware about when my wait will end.

I asked myself, "Do I need to shed tears for that man who doesn't care about me?"

It's been a very long time I was staying strong but can't anymore not this time. This pain I was holding in my heart for very long. I have tried every possible best thing to hold onto him.

"Does he miss me? Does he care about me? Oh... the answer is clearly no. If the answer is yes then why he doesn't try," I talked to myself but couldn't be helped.

It was of three years completed that we are not in contact. No one could ever know how I tried to stay strong alone, how I survived the heartbreak, the depression. He also never tried to call or message me. But, nothing was in my hand to stay in that beautiful moment with him there was no reason to remain. There were no chances of blossom in my autumn. The tree was still leafless and flowerless even after the years. Who will give a call to spring? Who will shower the rain on the dried field? Who?

"No... I am already moved on. I am strong. Why I am thinking about that past? I am at the peak of my career. I am doing well even without him. I can't fall weak like this. I don't need him and I am the warrior who has survived," I said myself and cheer up.

I splash the water on my face and emerged out from the washroom. I changed my clothes and dress up beautifully. I stepped out of home wearing sunglasses and take my bag with me. We are not together, not anymore. He didn't trust me for the things which I never did. I loved and still only love him there was no other man in my heart and mind except him. No one will ever come into my life after him. I tried to move on I tried to hold onto him, I beg but he didn't hear. We were not divorced as he denied to give. I turned to that thirsty, who could neither drink water nor tolerate thirst. I was depressed, broke, and in extreme pain but couldn't do anything as nothing was in my hands.

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