Lily in the woods

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A world without fear. Is it even exist? If it does, then it is surely a fairytale. It is entirely diverse from my world. There is no one important in my life, so I guess I don't belong in this world. But somehow, I can't even make decisions for myself. It is not because I don't know-how. It is because they won't let me.

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Lily Railda, 11 years old. The year 1988~

I walk with my eyes up and down, making a target. My hands are in my pockets and I am walking with a strange confidence. I bumped into a lady and I fell to the ground. To be exact, dirt.

"Oh dear, I am so sorry little girl, are you okay?"

The woman didn't get mad. Why won't she get mad as normal people would?

"I-I am okay, thank you,"

I got up and pat my dirty cloth with my hands which also got dirty. I smiled at her. It is decided that she isn't my victim for pickpocketing today. She seems to be kind and her smile is delicate which makes me overlook reality for a while.

"Where are your parents, young girl?"

I shake my head and say,

"They're long gone,"

My face is expressionless. I guess it has been a while since there were any emotions. I am not disabled that can't feel my face or anything, I just hide it.

"Oh dear, I am so sorry. But I think that is what you beggars should get,"

Her smile changed to a discolored glare. I am shocked that I can't even move an inch. She walks with that unusual walk of and kept fanning her face with a lovely fan. It didn't suit her at all.

I sighed and I looked up at the sky. What was I thinking? Someone as good as that? Impossible. I am jealous of the clouds, they are flying freely and have the sky as a companion.

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Lily Railda, 18 years old~ The year 1995

"Catch her!"

I am only a pickpocket doing her job against an old woman, how come the old woman has guards?! I am running with all my energy being poured out, despite doing this for more than 6 years, I can't believe that my stamina didn't improve at all. Probably because the money I got was also robbed almost every day. It is not easy to survive.

It is not like I didn't practice, but two male guards chasing a girl is already an obvious ending.

My heart can explode right now, so I guess I will just run. In the end, I got caught. One of the guards came towards me and punched me in the face. He's mad, huh.

"Boys! What are you doing?! Stop that right now!"

The old woman came and panting heavily. Of course, she was also trying to catch up to us. The old woman smiled at me. The pretender's face. I hate it. My cheeks are burning because of the punch.

"Are you not going to say sorry, young girl?"

I gasped. In the previous seven years, those who caught me never asked me to say sorry. They will just beat me sensely.

"Sorry,"

The old woman smiled.

"Let her go,"

The guards bow their heads. Just who is this old woman? As soon as they let me go, I am still with my ego and walk away with my hands in my pockets. Even I can tell I am rude.

I opened my clothes and dip myself in the water. Refreshed. Peaceful. The only time when I feel I can be relaxed.

"Railda! Get out from the bathroom, right now!"

I opened my eyes. I fell asleep. I am doomed, I am doomed. I get out from the bathtub made by woods. I grab my clothes and wear them. As soon as I get out, I was slapped. I look down and didn't even bother to speak.

"What took you so long? Urgh, why would grandma adopted you in the first place?!"

Rose, my stepsister scold me. I missed grandma.

"I am sorry,"

It is the year 1994, I am 18 years old. The old woman adopted me. Why did I accept? Because she kept visiting me for a week straight, and I slowly began to trust her. As long as I have been in her family, my stepdad, Duke Rasyl, and my stepmom, Duchess Raffle never cared about me. Rose too.

Only Grandma took care of me, and only I took care of her when she was sick. This family is nauseous. I can't say for sure if grandma was from this family. I wish grandma was still alive. They have been treating me like a slave in this place after she died.

"Now, go away. Leave me alone,"

Rose poke my head hard with her middle finger. I nodded my head. I walked to my room, with no more confidence or ego like I was.

There is a headrest for me to sleep on in my room. Though it is a bit hard, that's okay. I laid on it and started crying. Now my hands are cold, my whole body is. It is unusual for me to feel warmth these days.

What is the benefit of keeping me, anyway? Just throw me away and I will live my life quietly in my real parents' house which is far away from the town. The house is ours, though it is empty.

Sometimes I think it is better to be a beggar than live here, worse than a beggar.

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