Sacrifice

Life offered so many limes

Put so many enemies disguised as friends

Gave hope and took it all way

Make it look like it gave favors

Made me feel indebted I could barely breathe

Spat in the face of my sacrifice

Gave me chances until I knew it was a trap

I keep dreaming

Plotting and planning my revenge

Revenge consumed me

It was the only thing I could see

But then you came

Innocent as a babe, you who wouldn't hurt a fly

A heart so pure and serene

The recipient of my long accumulated anger

And yet you never gave up

You Gave me all you were and more

The care, the love,

Like I was a gift on its own

Made me feel like I was more than enough

Like you could see beneath the well designed facade

To know it was all a charade

So I had to let go of the past

Because being with you was all and everything

Worth any sacrifice I could ever make

Now I know

What it feels like to be in his arms

To have his arms clasp around tightly as if worried I might disappear

Now I feel the warmth, that slowly erodes the cold

The scent that seems to permeate him,

The scent of home and safety

And yet am scared, that I am a replacement to the woman he could never forget

He asks me is this what you want,

What if i said yes

But what about what he wants

Am I what he wants...

Could he let her memories go

The memories he clings too so hard

Feels like a heavy load to me,

Who makes bad decision

Yet the heart wants what it wants to be near and close

As two hearts that beat as one

The questions keep swirling in my head, is this real

Or am just a rebound

Reawakening

Feels like have being in a limbo, slumbering trying to while away the time,

It was getting so monotonous nothing new, just a bunch of repeat

Then came a spark that aroused all that I was, reawakening all that was dying

Reforming and becoming new, shedding the woes of the past, hurts, betrayal and let downs

Letting my inner diva out, the most determined i could be, letting the shroud fall apart

What's being encasing me all this time, feels like have being dying slowly while alive

The embers of light slowly ebbing away, until all that was left was but a kindle

It didn't take much to reignite, didn't want my life to be in disarray, the sense of who I was slowly passing through my hands, I summoned the desire to be more, leaving cells of souls to rejuvenate

The torn parts of me could only repair and reform and soon I was restored to the best I could be

It took a while to go through the cycle of reawakening putting all that I was on a journey...

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