I wish i was a girl

Joey pov :

More than 3 years since I asked chris to become my friend , now looking back , I still cannot undertsand where the hell did I bring all that courage , A badass , strisct , non joker such as him would never accept having a friend like me , shy , coy , unorrginized a living mess , but he did , so I was kinda gratefull.

I didn't get to see him much today a lout after classes , since i was hurrying as much as possible to greet my parents back , they let for more than 2 weeks for an important buisness trip .

I promised them to be home at time I even bought some gifts , Earings fro my mom and a watch for my dad , not really expesive presents but few things that i could afford with my allowance and few savings.

However i had to look for christopher before heading directly to home , tell him to not wait for me today so we can get back home together , we always took our road together ever since 3 years never missed a single day even that we normally use different paths , we both live in the oppsite direction of each other . but still we maneged to figure A way , I managed to find a way so I can enjoy his presence next to me as much as possible , look more into his eyes stare at his face

sometimes i can be a creep i know But thoese feeling i cannot deny , I'm aware that what i feel towards him is heading nowhere that he only considers as a dear friend but I can't help it

I cant't help that I fell in love with him at first sight , I can't help that it breaks my heart each day , each moment i saw him flirting with other girls , going out with other girls , god i wish i was a girl maybe he would look my way someday i wish i was a girl maybe he would see me the way i see him , put his slender fingers in my hair , brush my lips with his thumb... Kiss them tenderly...softly ... yeah... maybe...

At the begging I was the only one who would wait for the other , but then after our friendship had more depth he opened up to me , I recognized that under thoese beautiful blue eyes that makes my heart melt a huge sadness and depression , everytime he poured his heart to me about his family , his life , suffer and struggle i felt the urge to squize him into my arms even though he is a bit bigger and taller than me I'll find a way to burry him under my head , tell him It's ok , sooner all well away.

Breaking my thoughts with is precense he said << I thought you left... didn't you say your parents are coming today..>>

<< Yeah i wanted to say bye..>>

Brushing his hair with his fingers he said << well since you waited for me let me take you home... let's take cab. >>

<< ok...so what are you doing today..>>

Christopher: << I think i have a date..>>

What the heck a date again... he just had one yesterday

<< guess you like her since you are going out 2 days in a raw>>

Christopher : << Nah... it's a diffrent one i met today.. she asked me out..>>

Ofcours we wouldn't ask him out.

boiling in my jeoulsy i said << it's a shame i hoped you would to have diiner with us>>

Christopher : << Really i would like that .>>

While fishing out his home i said << I don't want to make you mess you date>>