The beginning

7/22/2022

Dear Diary, well this is what you will be called in till I find a name, well you were a gift from my mom because “you need to work on yourself” so I was basically forced to do this

Well I guess I should tell you thing that have happened like first I used to be bullied but hey! they probably hate their selves. who are we kidding I hate when shows or parents say that like ok does that matter. To me it seems like they are saying that it was ok because the did not like their selves same thing when people are like, they had a bad life you can’t blame them. That should not be a free pass just because they had a bad life. That should not mean they can be a d**** . Next subject my dad he is the reason I am never marrying a man. He would find it funny when he made me cry. He and my mom would get in to verbal fights and I would lock my self in the bathroom and cry pathetic right. Every time he sees me putting on makeup he would say “ that won’t help” and if I put on anything that showed a little bit of skin he would say that I look like a wh***. But the most confusing part is he says I look nice when I am wearing something that covers more. That is all for now

8/1/2022

Anyways I have this amazing friend named Alex they go by they/them and I have know them since 4th grade they are really pretty/handsome. We went to different middle schools but kept in touch and now we are in high school together. I faked proposed to them I wish I could marry them but I don’t think they like me like that .

I have to write a poem for class so how is this

Every year there is a trip someone must make alone

where they walk through the doors of time

But what happens if you can’t walk through any more doors

but instead hear the sounds of three hounds barking

your whole life worked up to this

you are asked one question

“were you happy”

some replie with no

some replie with yes

but none replie with maybe

My aunt calls me a wallflower because I don’t do anything but sit there sometimes I wish I’m in a different world I make up characters and love interest always both girls. But when it comes to writing it down I can’t do it like their is a voice telling me that I will never be good at it.

8/2/22

I saw Alex today they looked as i remember I wish I was as confident as them. I would be happy if I could spend all day every day with them but sadly I can’t. So I will stick with sometime seeing them as long as they are happy I’m happy.

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