chapter 2

“Jeon Jungkook!” What? No...

Yeah that was it, Jungkook who ever he was your soulmate. I couldn't understand it, I felt the pull that everybody talked about towards you, you were it! I didn't need a stupid mark on my chest to tell me!

I pretended to be happy for you, from his birthday on your chest he was a decent amount younger than you, but you still smiled and started telling stories of how you thought he would be, and how you would meet. My birthday came and went, I knew what it would say, but I didn't feel the happiness and butterflies that I used to feel, I just felt dread.The tattoo was there on my chest in the morning, your name and birthday filling it, telling me that you were the person for me. Sadly I weren’t that person for you. The next week was awkward, for some reason you felt hurt that I wouldn’t show you. I told you that the name was white, that my soul mate had already died, because that was how it felt to me. While you might not have died, my happy ending had.

I couldn’t have told you the truth, you would never have forgiven yourself. You would have blamed yourself for my unhappiness. I also knew you would never give up your idea of happy ever after for me, this Jungkook was already the end for you, I couldn’t destroy it for you. So I accepted it. I would give up my happy ending for yours because that was what love is. You let what you love go, and if it doesn’t come back to you… It was never yours to start with.

As we reached your 21 birthday I started having the tiniest piece of hope, neither of us had seen this ‘Jungkook’ yet, and most people found their soulmate before 21. I hoped you would give up, we were both adults now. You didn’t live in a fantasy world anymore, the problem was. I had helped you build this illusion, I were the course, I always agreed with you. I always build this dream with you. It was and still is my fault, everything that went down is my fault. Of course, since life has it out for me I were the one who found this Jungkook for you, we had a dance class together.

He was everything you wanted and more, I already knew that from the moment I saw him. You always said you loved muscles and strong people, it was what actually inspired me to build up my own strength, and Jungkook definitely had muscles. He was tall as well, a boyish grin showing of his younger age. I couldn’t deny it. He was very attractive, making me feel uncomfortable being close to him, I felt highly aware of my shorter stature and chubby cheeks. You used to always tell me you love me no matter what I looked like, that you loved my chubby cheeks and baby face, that you loved how you didn’t have to lean up to really reach me, but I still felt like I weren’t good enough standing next to your soulmate.

What I did next is the thing I will never forgive myself for doing, I should have done some research on Jungkook, look up what kind of guy he was, I should have made sure he was good enough for you! I never did any of these things, in my mind that wasn’t really the question, the question was… Were I going to tell you? You never really came around in the dance studio, you would not meet Jungkook unless I told you about him. So should I tell you the truth? Or should i keep it to myself? I told you. Of course I did. I wanted you to get your happy ending.

I told you everything about him, how he was a very nice guy he had helped a younger girl who had hurt her foot while dancing, I told you how good looking he were. I told you how good you guys would look together. I fed right into this dream you had. Or was it a nightmare.

At first you were shy, you weren’t sure if you were ready to meet him yet, specially after I showed you a picture of him that I had creepily snapped while he was drying sweat of himself. In the picture his friend Taehyung was half hanging of his shoulder laughing at something Jungkook had said, not seeming to mind the youngers smelling body one bit. It should have been a hint, if not for you then atleast for me, cause post dance sweat is disgusting.

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