Happy bday to my self

Hi readers 

What is birthday meant for you ? 

Big events in expensive hotels or restaurants , stacks of branded gifts, hair do + makeup , jewelry, branded clothes , fancy shoes with handsome and beautiful partner  +  friends important people ?

I am 42 years old now . No family around me .

No grandma . No grandpa . No parents .

No brother . No aunt . No uncle .

No husband. No boyfriend .

No job . No deal . No project .

No saving money in bank for future

I only have 5 rescue animals - 3 dogs and 8 cats  lives with me everyday

It is really painful a lot inside my heart when on your special day , you have nobody around you to call you , text you , hug you and kiss you to say Happy B'day

I am divorced 2x in my marriage life in past and never have serious  boyfriend who want to be with me and love me just the way I am

All friends that I ever had are just fake people who only stick around me if I can give something for them

( brought to resto , salon , movie , shopping etc )  or when I still have ex Western boyfriend with business or  when I still have good career

Need many years to understand we was born to this world alone and we will die alone

By this little note , if you are alone on your birthday , when you sick , when you have no way out from every problems , just remember always  in your mind we was born to this world alone and we will die alone too

One thing that we must be grateful for is we have God who never leave us no matter what , 

who never tired and never get bored to love and accept us in bad and in good no matter how many times we dissapointing God with leave Him and do 1000 bad things in life and we still have complete part of bodies , still have clean place to sleep and get protection under the sun and rain

Once more time 

Happy birthday to me . Stay strong .

Try to be positive . Keep walk . 

Keep continue  your journey .Trust on God 1000% 

Namaste

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