Kill myself I should

Welll

What do I even write on here

I just poured my nonexistent heart out

Well maybe I should elaborate

On why everyone’s in the right for hating me

Well starting off

I’m literally a hoe

Hahaha

I definitely want male attention

And I’m pretty sure it’s disgusting

Like I should pick a struggle

Ugly

Stupid

Awkward or

Disgusting

Somehow I manage to do all of these at the same time

Isn’t that funny

Well while we’re on it

I’m an attention seeker too

Lmao just look at me

I’m saying all this shit

Why?

Obviously I must want attention

Why would I not just type this shit in the notes app or something

I just had to do it somewhere where people can see it

And when I tell people I don’t eat

Obviously they’d show concern

I should’ve just lied saying I did

Now that I think about it

Me not eating is probably attention seeking behaviour too

I know it concerns my family

It hurts them

They’re frustrated with it

Yet I don’t eat

Isn’t it that easy?

Do I really have to be a bitch in everything?

Ofc I do

I’m a fucking attention seeker

Haha

I just started laughing

It’s fucking hilarious

I’ll tell u

Bro something’s fucking wrong with me

Laughing at myself while I can’t stop crying

Well let’s see

The day was going good

Too fucking good

I was excited

Talking to everyone in class

Practically bouncing around

I talked so much to my well since I can’t call her bestie anymore let’s just call her my client

Fucking hell

I was yapping to her all day

She barely said a word back

That was probably a sign she wanted me to leave her the tf alone

But I’m so fucking clingy

And needy

Disgusting I swear to god

Well it was going a bit too well

I was actually thinking life wasn’t so bad

Fucking foolish of me I know

A guy I genuinely just wanted to be friends with

lol I want to be friends with everyone

It was his birthday

And he got a few toffees from teachers

And he gave me one

Then guess what

Same time

My probably fucking favourite teacher

Gave me one too

I was holding them giggling like a fucking weirdo

I thought I was making a new friend

Lmao I guess we all know by now

That bad people don’t deserve too much happiness

God agreed too much

Fucking hell

I can’t even type it

As if it’s even that big a deal

It’s practically fucking nothing

Such a pussy

Crying about such shit

It was my fault anyways

Well some teachers are strict

This one was

I forgot to bring my register

I took out a page from another register

She looked me and told me

Why am I fucking curling up like a bitch

It’s not even a big deal

Don’t say it if you don’t want to

Nobody’s listening

Nobody cares

What drama am I doing now

Uneven breathing? Fucking really?

Bitch

Well apparently the happiness had fucking infected my brain

I didn’t think to take another register and pretend it was my history one

Like other people did

Am I really mad rn about that? WTF? I wanted other people to go through the same thing I did

Well as I type this out

I’m realising more and more why it is people don’t like me

Haha bitch

What am I trembling now?

What is this a fucking how to get attention guide?

Lmao didn’t even write what happened

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