*introduction*

!!*I'm really sorry for the bad grammar*!!

hello! everyone....my name is Amelia...I am a averge teenage girl like others but...., unlike other girls who r cheerful, happy and free, I am unable to express my true feelings...which drifted me apart from everyone including my family I even don't have a friend rn....Soo I really hope that some day I will be able to meet someone who can understand the true me..n help me express what I feel truly to my family n friends...and Soo I can have a normal family n friends like other girls who r able to interact with others easily.....Soo that's all for my introduction, let's move on to the story of my Life...will I be able to meet someone who brings the true me n will help me become the true myself 😊😊

now let's start my story about how I find the one for me..n how I find my happiness........

'on a hot summer day, I was enjoying watermelon with my family, Suddenly my brother cut his hand with the knife , he was using to cut the watermelon. I got panicked....as I was worried about his injury, I really wanted to console him as he made a face,like he was gonna cry, but instead I snapped onto him,

"like seriously , why r you so useless you can't even cut watermelon properly ,what are you going to do in the near future"

but I really didn't mean to say that, I was really worried about him,I really wanted to say that I am worried about him, that I wanted to console him so he can forget his pain....but instead I ended up giving more pain mentally. he began to cry and I were it was unbearable for me to see,.. I run out of there as fast as I could,

as I feel so bad seeing him cry...... I couldn't beer seeing him crying as I ran and from there I feel I might end up saying something again that might hurt his feelings more...

*Amelia P.O.V*

' i came running to my room as fast as I can,

I coouped up in my bed and begin to cry'.....

"why , just why!.... why do I always end up saying something that I don't mean........... why does nobody can understand that I don't want to hurt them ...I wanted to express my feelings that I care about them but every time I end up saying something opposite to them...

as I cried and cried I suddenly saw a flash of a boy that I offenty saw in some of my dream these few days it's like some parts of my memories that had been missing... aside.......... I somehow can't remember my childhood...

as I can remember my parents (I don't know really are my parents or not) did told me that I had accident when I was about 11 yrs old..... but I don't think that's true case because.....there is no injury mark all over my body or have I any impression of it....... n also I can't find any childhood photo of me inside my house and also sometimes they don't care for me just like they care for my brother and favors him over me... my mother always favours my brother n cares for him unlike me ..she doesn't care if I got hurt or not.... and also I can't understand what are the wierd dreams..... who r these people I am seeing in my dreams the past few days ......it's like they are part of my memory....that seems to be missing..... is there something that these people mean.....

it's like they are someone very important to me I can't understand what's happening to me....

..n also why can't I express my self in fornt of my so called family n friends it's like there is something inside me that is stopping me from getting close too them.....✌️

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