To The Man I Loved Before

To The Man I Loved Before

chapter1

‘’Evan, have you ever wondered why life is harder for people like us?’’ Toka says as he throws the rock in the lake.

‘’No. Maybe it was fate that brought us to such a miserable state.’’

Toka says ‘’One if we could change the way we are. I don't believe we were put on this earth to be bullied  for the rest of our lives. Me and you together could be conquerors.’’ as he held  Evan’s hand in the air. 

‘’Stop kidding around. I don't want anything from the world or from the people I've always been happy with the life I have chosen to live, especially since I get to spend it with you. All i want is for you to stay by my side.’’ Evan grabs Toka's hand. “Please don't betray me. I don't want fame or fortune. I just want you by my side.”

Toka blushes ‘’I- I- promise that i will stay by your side Evan. Now would you please just tell me why we are here? We could have went to an arcade or something.”

‘’I just thought that we could spend some time with each other where we can be alone. I barely get to see you anymore. Come sit next to me we can watch the sunset together.’’ Evan reaches for Toka’s hand, Toka grabs his hand and sits next to him. Even lays his head on Toka’s shoulder.

‘’I never told Evan, but that was the best day in my life. It was also my last. He died in a car accident. I had so much to tell him, but i never got to.’’ Toka begins to cry. It feels like boiling water is pouring out my eyes.

‘’I never got to tell you I love you. WHY? Why did you leave me? We made a promise remember? I was going to stay by your side, how can i do that when you're no longer around. Do you know that when you died you took my heart along with you. Without you I have no one else in this world. Its as if the world i once knew, full of color has now lost its color.’’ Toka sets a bouquet of flowers next to Evan’s tombstone.

‘’I came to tell you that I no longer have to live with my dad. Are you happy? I no longer have to live in that hell hole. I don't have to worry about what to eat or where I should stay for the night. I'm moving with my grandma so i wont be able to visit anymore. This is my last goodbye. I'm sorry i couldn't stay by your side anymore.’’ Toka walks to his grandma's car and gets in.

Toka’s grandma drives off. Toka stares at Evan tombstone until he can no longer see it. Toka's grandma grabs his hand. ‘’Everythings gonna be alright. It's time for you to move on. Not everything lasts forever.”

Toka looks at his grandma and says “we may not live forever but the love and affection he gave me will.” 

“It's been two years, Evan. I hope you miss me as much as i miss you.”

“After I moved in with my grandma I started unpacking. I had left a lot of the things that reminded me of Evan at home. I wasn't trying to forget him, I was just trying to be relieved of the pain and guilt of Evan’s death. 

“Toka? You start school tomorrow. You should get some rest. I'll take you tomorrow.”

“It's fine grandma, I was planning on taking the bus anyways” Toka lays in bed and clothes his eyes.

“Thank you for walking me home Toka. You know you didn't have to. I can get home on my own.”

Toka looks at Evan “maybe this was an excuse for me to spend more time with you.”

Evan blushes. They stop in front of Evans house.

Toka grabs onto Evans face “Are you ok? Your burning hot”

“Ye- yes im ok im just feeling a little hot. Uh d do you want to come in. my mom isn't home? We could hangout...”

Toka smiles and pats Evan on the head. “Yea i guess i got an hour or two before i have to be home. 

Evan opens the door and allows Toka inside. Toka walks in and shuts the door. Evan points to the couch. “You could sit here if you like.i go get us something to drink.” shortly after he comes back with two sodas. “Um, would you like something to eat?”

Toka grabs the drink and looks at Evan, he smiles. Evan flinches.

“yea …”

“Oh well what would you like to eat, i'll get it for you.”

“I want to eat you.” Evan accidentally drops his soda. Evan goes to get napkins to clean up his mess. Toka follows Evan, Evan turns to see Toka behind him. “You could have stayed seated while I cleaned up my mess.” Toka slowly walks closer to evan. He grabs Evan by the waist and pulls him in closer. “I said I want to eat you.” Toka leans in closer, Evan can now feel Toka’s bare skin. Toka kisses Evan.

Authors note

Hello everyone thank you for reading my novel there will be chapters up daily for those of you who are interested. If you are interested in reading any more of my novels i have four other novels out as well. If you have any comments or opinions dont hesitates to ask i would love to hear from you guys. Thank you for reading and I hope you enjoy it! What do you think will happen next?

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