The Love Of My Life All To Myself

We started moving our luggage into the place and I really smelled success and all I could really feel all my lust and love for Jay was already fulfilled before I made my first move.

After hours of packing, Jay and I gave up on the bed. Moving into a new home was really exhausting and really helpful for my plan to capture my love.

As Jay and I lay in bed, I couldn't help but notice how handsome Jay looked. I just wanted to kiss him so bad, and I did let my lust take over me. After all, I was an atheist.

I mounted Jay and he looked surprised. I barely noticed it as I was busy studying his large Adam's apple and how the swear decorated, and I must say one again, he is really handsome.

I didn't notice that I licked my bottom lips(it made me seem like a pervert) and then kissed him and to be really honest it didn't feel as good as I expected it to be. But I forced myself to make it feel good. I was kissing him gently, but he didn't tend to kiss back. He simply pulled away. He said "I'll be ruining you if we continue". It hurt, but I shook him off and bit his Adam apple, but he didn't react in any sounds of pleasure nor was he turned on. His earth was right below my core and his earth really didn't seem to react to any of my proposals.(It did hurt me that I didn't provide any pleasure to me).

He pulled away yet again and said "I'll be ruining you if we continue this." I sat down beside him, and he walked away with something most likely to be called an angry face.

To me, it felt like he was trying his best not to ruin himself if we continued what we were doing. I thought back to the things we did and the memories we made and when I thought about it, he wasn't the type of person that didn't love. He was caring and kind and always attended to my needs without complaint. And to be honest, he never got angry even when I was having my mood swings(intentionally). Even the time that I threw the weirdest temper tantrums, he never got angry.

Maybe, the reason that he wasn't turned in was because he was trying hard not to lose control of himself, and maybe the reason for his angry face was because I was trying to ruin my future all in his name. Most of all, I remember what he told me last year. I'll never forget. I still know it till date, word for word. He said "I want to marry you so bad and make you mine. I want to see you in that white dress and veil, to marry me. I'll be waiting till that day and I'll never do anything to ruin you"

He wasn't to be blamed. He was actually the best partner anyone could think of. If not, why would he even try leaving his home, his everything and where he belonged all because my family was planning to sell me?

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