How I Really Felt

I'm trying hard to shake off my lust for Jay. It's seeming difficult though. I'm trying to do that by making my days very busy and making myself a full schedule.*In It: Finding myself a part-time job

Creating a new wardrobe

Finding a new school

Focusing on my online courses*

Down the stairs was Jay. I started daydreaming all over again for the fifteenth time today. It was only 7:15 am. Well, a disadvantage of having your big time crush, lover, partner and husband to be in your home. Lust was killing me and I really didn't care what anyone thought about my attitude as a female. Only one person though, which was Jay.

I heard a voice that sounded like it had been calling for a pretty long time. " Luna!!!" I jumped from my seat and almost flipped my laptop over as I replied in a half-aware voice" Yes!!"(Like a soldier at attention). Jay's beautiful voice lingered in my soul as he said "Breakfast is serving. By the way, what were u thinking about that makes you drool. I hope that you aren't cheating on me, or are you?? "I quickly snapped out of it. Not only that, but I then realized that I had drool on my own crop top! My own !!! Was I stupid or my brain is trying to connect to the wrong server? Oh my goodness. What is Jay going to think of me now. He will most probably think that I'm a cheater or a pervert. Which one? I then heard Jay's sweet voice again and that made me once again snap out of my daydream.

He said "It really does seem that you are cheating on me with some ugly idiot. So you really don't care about me that you would rather think of a male whore than to think of me, your beloved? That means I should leave you so that you can have your time to spend without me interrupting your peaceful and lovely life with your soulmate.*in a dramatic voice*"

I saw his back at the door frame like he was ready to leave. I ran to hug him, and very tightly. In a way that I lace my hands around his neck that he was almost choking. The truth was that I just didn't know what words to say that would express what I felt well enough, so I started with tears and the first that made it out of my lips said "Please don't go."

I tried my best to calm down and spoke the very first thing I was very sure of. And then I told him in a very sober, cranky and low voice '' Yet too many words on my lips I can't comprehend." I let the tears freely flow, I continued "If I told you that I was thinking of you, would you believe me? Although, I know that no one, but does, but I just want to wish that you are different. Please tell me that I'm right." To be honest, I didn't know when I dropped to the floor, squatting as the tears made my tears flow, freely, out of my eyes which seemed like a leaking ocean at that time. Jay lifted me up and wiped my tears. Then, I finally relaxed a little.

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