Once Even I liked Someone

Even now sometimes I stare out the window, a question echoing in my mind, a question which my heart could never answer" Was that love?" I don't know what was it? Attachment? Crush? I don't know...

Your name is still in my mind, lingering in my every thought, your smile is probably the most beautiful thing I saw..... Well... That's why...

A fleeting smile from you can brighten up my day, You look like a star indeed always shining brightly surrounded by everyone. Your cheerful smile never fades away unfortunately I was never the reason of that smile, your eyes shine brightly that I had to look away, my cheeks felt burning. Why....? I don't know. Like always I sigh which was lost in the crowd reaching none as expected.

Another chaotic day passed by, all my energy drained away yet your smile didn't. My gaze wander around, like always you are surrounded by people, I envy those who are close to you. I closed my eyes tired from the chaos, as the gentle breeze came caressing my face, perhaps you don't even know my name. Then My eyes fluttered open, a thought lingering on my mind, was I supposed to like someone... yet along you? I don't know. I scratched my neck light feeling annoyed. Then suddenly you passed by like a fleeting patel of a beautiful flower going with the gentle breeze all my annoyance faded away like it was never there to begin with, my shoulders relaxed. I looked at the sky and thought how weird...

As I went home, retracting to my safe haven. My same black hoodie, dark room and no noise, it was peaceful like always with no one to disturb me, no one to judge me.

 I started scrolling though my phone, everything seems to remain me of you, your dazzling smile, your cheerful yet calm presence.... My mind is such a mess now. I put down my phone on the bed and put my head on my arm and ran a hand through my hair and groaned " Agh- why am I still thinking about you?'

I looked up and murmured to myself" ok, Distract yourself.... It will fade away soon... don't hold on to it too much... It don't last long too... Don't think about it... Sleep now... best and easiest way to escape reality.... Yes, sleep peacefully and forget about all this...."

I flopped on the bed tiredly, only that smiling face haunting me, only your name in my heart and I could only sigh... For a person who doesn't believe in love, isn't it torture?

I covered my eyes with my hand, trying to focus on the ticking sound of the clock and the city sound in the distant. My eyes started closing as I drifted into a dream. Hopefully I don't end up dreaming about that smile too.... Well, some feelings are better left unsaid and fading away with time so that no one knows.

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