when it all crumbled into pieces

I never thought this would be the end. I knew deep down they never really loved me. Not only that, but I knew I was just someone they got to fulfill and accomplish their plans. I knew all this but still, still I hoped that they cared for me even a little. I really thought that if I did everything they said, if I followed their orders I would finally claim a little place in their hearts. How wrong I was.

There she was my sister standing in front me laughing at my current situation. I was dying, and they didn't care at all. None of them shed even a tear. They all couldn't wait the moment I would finally die.

"Oh my dear sister. Do you finally get it? They don't love you they never did. It was all to protect me and help the family gain power. You never mattered, you were always a stepping stone, so I could get what I wanted. You were always an extra my dear sister. Always.'

'Why??'

'Why you say. Well you see its very simple. You are an orphan, you have no real family. The only reason they adopted you was to protect me. We are a powerful family after all. We have many enemies and someone had to take the blame. You were that someone every time. You did everything you were told never wondering if it was right or wrong. We didn't even have to threaten you. You were so easy to fool my dear sister. It was rather amusing seeing you try so hard. You became a mage to protect the family, you sacrificed your life so many times only to end up here. You were accused of something you didnt do, and they made you pay the price for something you weren't even aware was happening. So clueless. And even if you wanted to escape you can't anymore, can you? They made sure you wouldn't be able to use magic never again. And now you are rotting in a shell. Alone. Very fitting for an orphan don't you think?

' So you never really cared for me .....

' Hahaha we to care for you hahaha haha. Oh, my you must have lost your mind. You were an investment. Nothing more. You were never a true part of this family more like a slave. But I have to admit you were a rather strong mage. But you wouldn't if we hadn't made you.

I see. Now it all makes sense. I was always a fool. I wanted someone to love me so much I didn't see their true intentions. All the misery, the tortures, the pain all of it were just for their gain and nothing more. I see now. It's all clear. It's a shame it's so late now. I can't do anything to change the past, it's too late. If only I wasn't so blind I wouldn't have made so many mistakes.

If only I had a second chance. If only I could start again I wouldnt be such an idiot always trying to be loved. I would only live for myself.

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