My Suicidal Romance

1.My Suicidal Youth.

"How many times must I tell you Ryuunosuke!Wake Up!"

I lifted my head from the desk.Everyone started laughing.Why though?Oh yeah.Tadaka-sensei just can't let me sleep.Shouldn't have stayed up all night

"Ryuunosuke,See me after class in the

Office"

Perfect.Now i have to stay back.

"Hehe,Akihito-kun is gonna have private lessons with Tadaka-sensei.Wonder what lewd things they are he is going to do to her."

Holy shit.Shut the hell up.I'm so done with this shit.I hate it here.Everyone's a jerk.I dont wanna deal with this.

LESSON ENDS

I got off my seat and slung my bag onto my shoulder and left the class.Oh yeah.I had to meet Tadaka-sensei after class.Now i have to head to the office.What a drag.

I headed towards the vending machine to get a coffee before heading to the office only to run into Tadaka-sensei.

"What a coincidence.Didn't i tell you to meet me at the office"

Thats what she says but look who's here instead of at the office.

"Even if i went,I would have to wait for you to even enter.Anyways,what are you doing here?"

"Well,Lets not talk about that and about you."

Tadaka-sensei threw me a coffee.A

BOSSPRESSO,exactly what i wanted.I started searching for my money.

"Its on me." Tadaka-sensei said as she noticed

"Ryuunosuke......"

"yeah?"

"Whats that on your wrist?"

Tadaka-sensei grabbed my arm and pulled up the sleeve,revealing the cuts on my wrists.

The last thing I want anyone to see was that.Especially Tadaka-sensei.She froze in shock as I covered it with my sleeve.

"Ryuunosuke...Are you alright?"

I frowned.If anyone knew about what

my past,It was Tadaka-sensei.Tadaka-sensei was the student of my Mother back then.I could say she was a like a big sister that I

never had.She used to come over frequently when she was younger but now she is a teacher in my school and I have known her for over 10 years.

My parents,both passed away in a car accident.Leaving me and my little sister,Shino,to live our lives alone.However,Tadaka-sensei usually came to help.I was young back then,however,I understood what happened unlike little Shino.Those years were terrifying.But now,it had got better since.

At least that was what everyone thought.I couldn't get over the fact that it

wasn't my fault.My parents had died on my birthday and since then,I hated my birthday.It reminded me of myself,the reason my beloved parents were no longer in this world.The pain they had to go through to make me have a good start in life.They were the best.But I was the cause of their deaths.I didn't want to think otherwise.I resulted to attempts of suicide.

However,Shino and Tadaka-sensei were always there for me.

Tadaka-sensei held my hand.

"Ryuunosuke,it wasn't your fault okay?Stop hurting yourself and enjoy the world Akihito-sensei let you in.I bet she would be really sad if she saw this ,so come on Ryuunosuke.Don't do this again okay?"

I struggled to form a sentence.I was going through the experience again.My life flashed before my eyes and before i knew it,tears streamed down my cheeks.I looked at Tadaka-sensei.Only to see her crying too.I tried my best to force a smile, just to stop her from

crying.

"I'll try my best.Otou-san,Okaa-san.Sorry."

Tadaka-sensei wiped away her tears and looked at her watch.

"Its getting late.I'll send ya' home.We can get some Bento sets on the way for your dinner"

"I'll handle the food part.Thanks"

Tadaka-sensei proceeded to drive me

home.This had happened many times,

especially on festivals where she would send me home in her car.Tadaka-sensei was really worried and I could tell.The cuts on my wrists also caused me trouble but it was my only way of feeling regret for what i have caused.

During the ride,Tadaka-sensei striked up a conversation.

"Ryuunosuke,Are you in a club?

"Uh no. Why?"

"You should join one. It can help take your mind off things for a while. Join one that you might enjoy."

"Enjoy huh? Well i like books.I think?"

"Don't be like that,Bakkanosuke."

"Look here,If you're gonna call me tha-"

Tadaka-sensei yawned loudly

"Can i call you Ryu-kun?"

Thats what my parents used to call me.

"Uh.Ok I guess."

"So Ryu-kun.Maybe you should consider

joining the literature club.There's only one member which is the leader.She's a cutie."

"I don't care about things like that.If I'm gonna' join a club,it better be worth my time."

"Don't be like that,i know boys are just

perverts,Pervynosuke.Anyways,we're here.Say hi to Shino for me."

I decided to be cheeky for god knows what reason

"See you tomorrow,Onee-san"

"EEEEEH?!"

Tadaka-Sensei blushed as she drove away.

I entered the apartment

"Tadaima!"

"Onee-chan! What took you so long!"

Shino ran out of her room to the door and hugged me

"woah.This is how it feels like to be hugged?"

"I was so worried Onee chan got robbed and attacked by gangsters.Thank got you're okay."

Shino,My little sister,is the best sister i could ask for. She's cute, She's pretty and She's my type. However,She's my imouto. I went to sleep without any trouble.

ALARM GOES OFF

Hah.I woke up today,alive and ready for school for the first time in god knows how long.Ive been arriving late at school lately as i barely get any sleep and Shino has to wake me up.

Today,I got my full 8 hours of sleep and Shino was shocked to see me awake at 7am.She's so cute.I wanna spoil her.Oh god i think im having a siscon.

The day went on like normal,getting laughed at by gals,studying,getting laughed at by

delinquents,Getting scolded and drinking

coffee.The day went on without me sleeping once.

Everyday,some gals can't shut up and stop laughing at me during homeroom session.Im used to it but it pisses me off.Their voices sound like the backing vocals of 100 miles but its pitch is 200 times higher,exactly,it sounds like a angry cat.

SCHOOL ENDS

The time i had been waiting for finally came.The time to join a club.I walked around the school,searching for the literature club.

Finally,i found it after looking for at least 15 minutes.Damn room was hiding the library.

Wait..it should be there anyways.I'm a

dumbass.

I knocked on the door and waited for a reply.

"Come in"

It was a girls voice.Her voice was gentle and at the perfect volume,unlike those gals.

I walked in,to see a girl,around as tall as me sitting down.

The room was clean and organized and had a table in between.There were bookshelves

covering the wall with all of the famous books from different authors.The girl had black hair and had a cute face.She also had beautiful blue eyes.She also was flat,which im not ashamed to say,is my preference.She looked at me and asked.

She looked at me with a curious face.She was reading a light novel which i clearly recognize.Tate no yuusha or Shield Hero which is one of the action ones.Me? Im more of a romance guy.She put down her book.

"Um..What business do you have here

Akihito-kun?"

"Im here to join the Literature club and may i ask how do you know my name?"

I tried to be as nice as possible to put up a good first impression.

"You're real popular in this school,you know that right?"

What?Im popular?Thats a joke right?If anything,Im theopposite of popular.

She talked with no slang.Perfect grammar asid she was taking an oral exam.Her voice was cute.She sounded like Shino.

"Really?"

"Of course not.Tadaka-Sensei had informed me that you would be coming."

"Huh,How did she even know?"

"I have no idea.Your name is in the Club list.She must have made you join this club."

Damn Tadaka-sensei.Now im in this Literature club .Not that its a bad thing.But she's always doing this.Welp.I was going to join either ways.