Orlando

Well I don’t really know how to start this i have love you for 5 years now and i know you won’t be coming back i lost you long ago for me to know your Probly better now you seen happy last time i saw you i honestly think is better if you don’t come back bc if you do i don’t think i be able to ever move on from you. I still miss you ofc but it’s not like before it’s not that feeling telling me that there still a chance between us is more like i wish i could have made things better or just not told you how I felt back then bc I knew how is was gonna end and i still told you i was stupid enough to belive you would even feel the same i see it now before i didn’t but now i think it was pretty clear last time i saw you it was nice i didn’t got to talk to you tho but you know what is the part that hurts the most that you were always able to look at me like i ment something knowing perfectly that i didn’t it is just stuck in my head the way u use to look at me back then i after the summer the way you would look at me this year during first Meyby it was nothing and i am just being delucional but honestly it’s okey i think i prefere to remeber it this way i prefere to remember those lil moments because it’s all i have from you i don’t have nothing else and i think i like to remember you has the orly i meet back in 7th grade not the one that came after even tho you were still nice after i fuck up but i think i am just holding into the food memoris bc i am to scared to accept that it was nothing at all that you were just gone after all and i don’t think i can deal with that yet just yet Meyby later i will but rn i need something to hold onto that remains me of you of the you I knew bc i don’t know you no more I haven’t know you for a long time i still remeber how scared i was once i saw u again after all that time it was like seeing a ghost of the boy i once knew but you still had the same smile the same shine on your eyes that way of looking at people that remind me Meyby you were still the orly i knew but i now i don’t think you are bc i am not even the same person i was back then how would i expect someone else to be the same if i am not. Sometimes i hope i be able to see you again just once to talk just tell you evrything i didn’t told you when i had the chance but i think it won’t be the best idea bc i don’t even know if you remember who i am, i hope you do just a lil even if it’s a random memory of me i just hope u know how i was but i know it’s a stupid tbinbh to ask for.

With love me, for you my orly.💜

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