Chapter 4: getting married.

today is the wedding and I was surrounded with my sisters checking every detail trying to make sure that everything is perfect and will be one of my best memories, little do they know it would only be the best if David decided to ditch on me and cancel it, but how would they know? I didn't tell them.

well it's not like they'll understand me even if I did it'll end up in a huge argument amongst us like usual. because that's what they always do, pretend to care but once I tell them my problem they of course would disagree and would never try to understand my point of view and we wouldn't talk to each other for the rest of the day, and that's for trivial things only, imagine how it would be for this one.

you'd wonder what happened at the engagement party, the answer is nothing he again tried to persuade me into stepping back, but if he doesn't want problems with his family I don't want either, he of course got agry again and probably even hated me more but who cares, everyone should think about his interest and at least for this time I decided to be selfish.

now i'm walking down the aisle with my dad, another girl should've probably been nervous and scared of falling so that she won't embarrass herself, well for me it's more like fearing my father's reaction especially with all my family members' eyes on me.

that's something I didn't clarify before, but my family and I were never on the best terms, in my school and even though I was the top student my teacher hated me for some reason and didn't waste an opportunity to torment me, I watched her for years lovkng and favoring my classmates while I just sat and watched at the corner.

it took me a while to make some friends that eventually turned their back on me at some point and who didn't always considered me the least favorite one, and as you know i'm only left with one now.

so amongst that all I at least wanted to see some care from my parents I wanted to see some favoritism from them that I always seen from them to my siblings yet I found none, in contrary I was always the most pressured one amongst them.

you'd think that how bad was this girl that no one liked her, the answer is not at all, it's not because i'm talking about myself but what everybody said about me despite leaving me behind, I was a kind and a cheerful girl, you'd never see me without a smile on my face and I always tried to cheer people around me, I was funny and sociable and smart enough too.

well the keyword is 'was' because i'm no longer I eventually became the total opposite of that, that optimistic energy turned into a pessimistic one even towards myself, i'm quite the introvert, hate people, and all the funny remarks I used to make once turned into sarcasm, frankly put the warm and bubly girl turned into a cold bitch. at least I give them a valid reason to hate me for now, right?

I was snapped back into reality as my father squeezed my hand a little bit to get my attention handing it to David to hold, which of course was glaring down at me, nothing new about it.

"you still have a chance to stop this. " he whispered into my ear, it was a sweet sight for the onlookers but not everything is how it seems, they probably thought his praising me, you know 'you look gorgeous' the famous line every groom tells his bride when he sees her in the wedding dress. well... I'll leave that for the romantic couples today.

as we exchanged our vows I kept my gaze distractedly at his forehead, you know when you're looking at something but not really looking at it, I didn't want to look into his eyes and see that hopeful yet hateful gaze towards me, it's quite annoying he should learn when to give up, and considering that I need to show them that i'm looking at him I need to make it pretty close, and I'll make him conscious that way too, something I've read before. some psychological tricks.

"I do" I answered without hesitation when I was asked, it's not the time for me to act hurt or hesitant, if i'm doing it better do it right. looking into his eyes he was in disbelief, his problem anyway, I made it clear that I won't be the one to step back.

"I do. " he gritted out his answer making me almost scoff, too bad I can't give him a piece of mind now.

"you may now kiss the bride. " as he lifted my veil k glared at him lifting my eyebrows together, low-key telling him to not do it, I mean I already warned him about it in the engagement party, but I should make sure he remembers, I by no means want him to kiss me.

but having an idea of his own, a vicious smirk made its way on his face, and I knew what was coming, he's doing it, childish jerk. as he Bent down he kept his challenging glare on me and I made sure to keep my disgusted face obvious to him. let him see that no one is really eager to kiss those lips which you can't even count how many they kissed before and it's just ew.

the crow was cheering loudly as he did so, while the only thing I thought about is wiping my lips, but I can't do it in front of people, and mt lipstick isn't with me now if I wipe them.

the moment we got into the car to leave to the reception party i started looking for wet wipes that I fortunately found and began wiping my lips vigorously until it started burning me a little bit.

seeing my red and swollen lips I was finally relieved as I sighed laying back on the car seat comfortably, then brought out the lipstick I took with me before in case of emergency which I never imagined to be this by the way, and started applying it slowly and carefully since the car was moving.

finally satisfied a little smile made its way on my lips, and just as I put away my phone that o was obviously using to all that, I finally noticed David's gaze on me, and by the looks of it he was watching me all the time. ignoring him like I usually do I looked out of the window watching and even counting the cars that we pass by, yes that's how bored I was, and I can't even use my phone longer since I have sickness motion and applying lipstick already took a troll on me, so no room for more.

"if you're that disgusted why did you agree to this marriage? " I sighed for the nth time hearing this question.

"my answer will always be the same no matter how many times you ask me this question, I did it for the same reasons as yours, so give up this question already. " I answered simply but I can see that he still wanted to say something but i'm in no mood to talk, so no, i'm not encouraging him to go ahead and ask his questions.

"did you do it for money? " he asked after a few minutes making me scoff.

"well i'm not an item to be sold for money, so no I won't get myself into something like this just because of it, and my family has plenty of it too so... "

"they surely have, but you have four siblings as well, and even though you and your brother studied the same profession and even did it better than he did, he's still the one to manage it now alongside your father and not you, and he's three years younger than you, so there's no excuse of him being older, in comparison to me who's an only child and the only heir. " he reasoned out.

and it actually hurt, not him accusing me of being a gold digger, he can go to hell, it's just the fact that even a random stranger can see the unfair treatment towards me, that even an outsider can see that i'm an outcast in my own family. like sure I wanted to avoid working there but one of the reasons I didn't mention before that I would be just a plain employee working under my brother's orders. and that was a huge no. especially that I get paid less than him, like waaaaay less.

"maybe it's my own decision, that's something you didn't take into consideration. "

"that's unlikely, considering your type of personality. "

"oh really? "

"yes, an arrogant person who have things his own way by hook or Crook and can't deal with it if it didn't work, sounds too much like someone who likes to take control of things rather than step back and watch. "

"so your point here is that I wanted to be rich too bad and I couldn't deal with not being the one in control of the company and you were my only solution to be in control? " I asked with a raised eyebrow watching him as he nodded his head in agreement.

"then how am I supposed to do so if I married you, after all I'd still be the one in the background right? your reasoning is way too stupid for a business man, I mean I do understand that you should think of all the possible reasons, but that doesn't even sound logical. "

"it does once you think of the difference you'll be getting in money language. " I scoffed yet again without saying anything, this conversation isn't going anywhere with him.

as we reached the reception the driver was the one to open the door for me, well at least one of them knows about Manners. as I stepped down I hooked my arm around his even though he didn't offer it making him look at me with confusion but I ignored him once again as we made our way inside, i'm sure he'll figure out the reason since he seems to think way too much.

"congratulations my dear, welcome to our family. " his mother said once she spotted us then wrapped me in a hug before doing the same to her son. followed by her husband who I only Shook hands with mumbling a 'thank you' for the second time faking a sweet smile.

"of here you are, congratulations Abigail. " my mother hugged me and I did the same with a little thank you yet didn't bother to fake anything just a blank one, and when my dad stood in front of me i was in a loss of what to do, we can't just shake hands but is it okay to hug him? we're in public I don't think he would like it, but still...

ignoring my thoughts I hesitantly hugged my father, which he didn't reciprocate, as he congratulated me, he was always the type of cold parents, he was never the affectionate one, it was rare when he'd ever hug me back.

pulling away from me he Shook hands with David exchanging a few words making a little conversation before walking away from us, then followed by him were my siblings, they were one of the most awkward hugs, and after them came all the other guests to congratulate us.

and finally with almost a hundred we were done, left with an awkward silence between us until he decided to ditch me to talk with sole of his business partners, well I wouldn't consider it ditching me, I was glad for it.

"you did it. " Anna snapped me back to reality sitting beside me and I leaned my head on her shoulder humming in response.

"there's no going back. " she continued as I stopped for a few seconds considering whether or not to voice my thought.

"divorce isn't a solution we both know that. " she beat me to it making me sigh tiredly.

"i'm not pretty sure, I was thinking of maybe keep it going for a couple months then ask for a divorce with the excuse of not getting along and fighting a lot. "

"but have you thought about the consequences you'll have to face with your family? "

"thay might even disown me. " I half joked forcing out a chuckle.

"think it through well, you still have time don't act recklessly, you'll have to face some consequences that are worse than the marriage itself. " she reasoned out with me, and my gaze diverted to where David was standing.

I don't think anything is worse than this marriage, we already hate each other to the guts that I can't even imagine getting along together.

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