Chapter 2 - Shall I Give Up?

...After cursing my existence for a while I fell asleep....

...The next morning I woke up by a bucket of water being downed onto my face....

...I hate this so much! What right do they have to treat me this way!?...

...I'm just tired of it all.......Can't I just die?...

..."Oi!! Get ya @$$ up!"...

...Ughhhh!...

...I got up and glared at the b@$tard in front of me....

..."What ya looking at b¡t©h!"...

...Saying that he grabbed my shoulder and we walked out of the room. He was holding my shoulder so tightly and it hurt so bad......but on the bright side.....it was Wednesday...........

...We walked to the showers and as usual I had to go through the excruciating minutes of him watching me as I showered........

...When I was done and dressed, James escorted me down a hall and into an office....

..."Hello Eclipse!"...

...And there he is, Lucas......The only person in this place that actually cares about me......

..."Hi!"...

...I replied as I sat down but as I did, I hurt my arm because of this d@mn restraint that they're forcing me to wear....

..."Can you take that off James?"...

..."But..."...

..."She's not going to hurt anyone"...

..."Fine"...

...He noticed........

...James came and took off the restraint before leaving the room and Lucas came closer to me and held my hand.......

..."Is your hand ok?"...

..."Y-Yeah"...

...He always so gentle with me.... That's why I love Wednesdays......

...But wait.....why was I stuttering!?...

...It's probably nothing.........

...Lucas is a psychiatrist here......Every patient has to see him once a week and despite the fact that everyone else sees and treats us as quacks, he treats us all like we are actually people......

..."So how are you today?"...

..."I'm fine"...

...We continued talking about some general things and then we reached the topic that I hated everytime it was mentioned........

..."Are you ready to give up on Mr. Jay?"...

...And everytime he asked me that question, I couldn't answer.....I'm just not ready and whenever someone asks me.......I get a bit panicky. I don't know why but it just feels like I'm giving up a part of myself....Giving up on someone who I've dedicated most of my life for.......I just can't comprehend it........

..."It's ok, don't stress yourself"...

...He said trying to calm me down in a way and then we continued talking......

...After we were done, James came back and so did the restraint. Again my arms were restrained and we headed back to my box....

...I laid on my bed as I stared at the ceiling..... Why does everyone keep on telling me to give up!?...

...What right do they have to be telling me to give up on someone that I love!?...

...Why didn't they tell Nyla to give up!?...

...Why am I the villain!?...

......Why can't he just love me!?......

......Is everyone right!?......

...Should I give up on him!?...

......Am I really capable to give up on him!?......

...But....then what!?...