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Living in a society where whatever you do isnt correct. where do you go then? after rejection with a heavy heart where do you find the comfort?

I don't remember the last time looking back at the place I adore.. it's been long since we moved out of there but the Truman hasn't left me empty. I can admit truly that I was never left all alone by myself. I had my memories, anxity, Rejection and myself. the biggest gift I've ever was gifted by the universe was this body, a worthy, strong, powerful soul, mind that was able to create imaginations which saved me so many times that now I almost live in one of those worlds with all my loved ones. I never open up to anyone. people take me as an mysterious and smart person who is able to stand all alone in a society which hi-lights the negative parts of ours, then that's what they really want to see? isn't it? because when we fall we feel, then why is that feeling so heavy? I think a murder is less heavier then this one. often when we show the broke side of ours to the society they get an point of picking that part over again and again. why is that. I'm not good at sports, for which I often get pulled and judged for my body. I never mind on those useless comments because I know what I am and I know at the best point least I have an perfect and healthy body. that is what matters to me. who sees that. all are often looking for the weakness that when we turn strong they think we are changed. why is that? aren't we all suppose to change? nothing is perfect! no matter what you do and who you are.. to them! you are too skinny, too fat, too flat, too dark, too pale, too tall, too short!!

Nothing is perfect to them.. no matter how hard you try everything will still remain the same as it always was. why? because we ourselves are dealing with this society and also at the other side. We are the same Society from which we all are trying to run from. what I'd I say is.... there's no place to hide.. no matter wherever you go.. because the closest one is the person you are afraid of being humiliated or hated from. the closest often don't discriminate but among those "often donts" there are these one possible chances they do consider you weak at some point.. Never let that put you down. remember the trial for trusting yourself is the first path to resistance.

if I could turn back time, I would have changed the stereotypes not the society.

it all starts from the inside. after all it's just a lie. a lie of living the happiest among the happy. What eats up is just a phase that never really ends.

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