Inner Voice!

2 weeks later ...

I get discharged from hospital and was coming back to my hom- no house, it's not a home anymore it's was like an living hell where they fought fading away all of our sweet memories together...the car halt.

I enter the house it was cozy as mom ever kept it. Truthfully, i asked my parents to just let me stay in hostel. But they made promise to me that "they will not fight again" which made me believe them. But at that time i forgot that rage is higher than promises....

I came back to my room and sigh laying down in my bed, i instantly fall asleep...i was tried.

"AHhhhhhh!!!" i heard a scream that make me woken up. It was middle of the night, so i could hear their screams louder. Tears automatically generated in my eyes and fall off. Through the blurred eyes, i saw the blade in the table. I stood up and start walking towards the table. i reach out my hand but out of the blue my eyes locked to my phone lockscreen popping out with a BTS song notification and and which was still plugged to my earphone maybe i had forgotten to plugged it out! Unknowingly the direction of my hands changes to direction of my phone. I put my earphones and play their songs as loud as i could.

At that time, i tried to made myself strong and comfort myself whispering to myself the inspiration of them- "You should learn to love yourself!" ; "love begins from loving yourself first" ; "Your body isn't a paper don't cut it" and many more......

My glance fall on the mirror that was in front of me, i realised how devastated my parents fights have made me. I have scratches in almost everypart of my body which i made maybe in a sense of hope that they might stop fighting seeing me wounded, after all they are parents, they are my parents but all gone wrong. I have not study, and school it's been so many weeks i had skip it. I pull out the cream and put it in all my wounds. I peek out of the window, i could see many buildings through the dim light of the moonlight which is spreading inside my room, looking down i could feel winter chills by looking at the Japanese Magnolia that are blooming passionately , under it i could see two newly born kittens being fed by their mother. It's been so many while that i haven't look out of the window and admire the beauty of nature. That's when I thought to myself that i wanna love myself, and wanna love BTS! I wanna live a happy life just like before, wanna smile in jokes and wanna cry in pain and wanna express myself! And atleast gonna try to make life less hurtful!

I crawl into my bed and laid down, still hearing the songs.... sleep possessed me so well 'cause i was really tired this time.

^^^TO BE CONTINUED....^^^

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