Back to School...

MORNING 6:30 AM

I woke up at the gentle singing of a bird outside my room. Today i planned to go to school, i followed my regular normal school routine and get ready. I pull out my books which were in my wardrobe drawers, in the past few month, i have kept them hidden.

While i was getting dress, i could feel the dead silence outside my room. Ready for departure i got out of my room. I could feel my father's absence in the house while i saw my mother sleeping surrounded by a dozen of alcohol bottles. i tip-toe out of the house.

I reached my school. But what shocked me was like an updated app my friends and classmates had change. The girl in our class started doing make-up while boys are adapting adulthood. I was shocked the friends i spent my childhood with, are now... different and far away happy from me. I was... embrassed? scared? idk one thing that hold my mind was not today. I quietly sat on the back bench.

Class started. I could feel the few stare on me by my friends, like they want to approach me but they too were hesitating. But no one humiliated me. Finally the break time occured. I felt the great layer of loneliness near me, maybe this was hesitation or were mine. I again started feeling suffocate, in hope to breathe again i leave the classroom. My legs are not in my control anymore, it lead me to the rooftop of my school. I inhale a large some of air and exhale it out slowly. Without delay i pulled out my phone and played a BTS song, and a claim layer fill my air...my heart rate became normal. I collapsed in the floor. I was relaxed.

I thought to myself that - "No this can't be like this i have to change, i have to become someone everyone adores and value again. I have to...."

The break bell rang and i stepped towards my class. Time pass.. School get over and I went back to my hom- i mean house, with a mixed feelings in my heart and several thoughts in my mind.Slowly night was approaching in the dim light of the drowning Sun. I reached my house and saw the darkness.

My eyes were searching for mother, but i realised that no one was there. I went straight to my room close the door and changed my clothes. The fact that i have to changed was still young in my mind. i came out of my room hearing a call from my relatives, they say that mother is in their house and that they also want me to come. I refused in the name of school. A few hours ago i also got a call from my father's office quarter that he is safe in their.

I was left alone in the house. Unknowingly a drop of heavy tear fall in my arms. I was crying, because i knew that i can't changed. No matter what i do i am still the same and that scares me...

^^^TO BE CONTINUED..^^^

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