The Reason

All of this was started with a mere misunderstanding. Like other families, we were also a happy one. But that change with the arrival of our new neighbors. Their family seems happy too. I should have seen the red flags but I was just blinded by fake love they showed me. I tried to get closer to their family too, hoping to work on my introverted personality. Not only that, but I was naive and blinded as it was just the calm before the biggest storm.

Rumours around started calculating about their family's wife and.....father. He explained it to be a misunderstanding but mother who was blinded by anger and maybe jealousy couldn't think the right way. Soon this small fire spread, igniting to destroy all the love, good memories and trust that we shared together. In the midst of all this, a thought always occurred in my mind, what If i had stopped them from fighting that day? Why don't we went to grandmother house that day? What don't they try to claim it off with a calm mind instead of throwing back rubbish words at one another, they love each other, right? And did they ever think about…me?

No they never ever did!! I am just lackey…why do they even care about someone like me?… I tried to kill myself a lot of time, but it never worked.

My boards are approaching, I am anxious from all those scars they had unknowingly mark on me. But never could I express them neither suppress them. I felt like these feelings are killing me from inside. Until THEY enter my life. I had a bad habit ever since childhood I tend to imagine things whenever I felt alone or when my parents used to scold me… Basically being delusional. I used to get lost in my own imagination to comfort myself. There will be always a person to comfort me in My World. After they entered it my comfort person were replaced to THEM.

I used to avoid any possible interaction with anyone. I think it was the fear of them asking me questions. What surprise me was that once I get closer to my friends, they never asked me any questions, they instead make me feel comfortable and...happy? Yes I am happy when I am in school. They never asked me the reason of my bruises or scars. They comforted me when I cried. And At house I would stay glued to my phone, nope not a boyfriend but BOYBAND!!

Once i heard of a quote "FAKE IT TILL YOU MAKE IT", I put a fake smile in my face. And was startled by how strange and easy it was to do so. Their fight lessen too. How sarcastic it is even their fights took a development; from visual to call. Father had a transfer. Our house became quiet. But things took turn for the worst as all of us grew apart. And i got busy with life.

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