Why

The reason why I need to write this down mostly for personal records. Probably you'll think that writing is an easy task. Just write or type the damn words and that's that. For me, to consentrate is a challenge. Even when imagining something, it's never easy you know.

I guess I have that on me.

the ADHD thing.......

I just realize this for quite some times. My body forces me to concentrate on one thing and it disintegrated immediately when hallucination strucks. Geez, it will satisfy me to just bang my head like most people during heavy metal concerts. Only to realize it afterwards when your head starts to bleed and you lost consciousness.

However

I discover that there's no solid cure and medication for this problem. Your head is like a ticking time bomb that can explode at anytime. Even while I'm typing, i still consider the grammatical arrangement which interrupted my writing flow.

Well then who cares. From this moment on, screw the grammarly and plagiarism. We're living inside judgy community where the sheep stands at top of a food chain. I used to have a dream where I exposed hidden crime done by mafia and return as a hero. I always think that the higher your position, the more you become a hero. Not surprisingly, I was wrong the whole time.

Those moral value taught by adults. It merely a cover to hide a bad stench of someone's dead body.

Well anyway

I need to write down as much as possible because it is an opening segment but just as I explained, my fingers reduce their typing speed and well....... I kind of stuck right now

Pfftt........

There's lots of ideas that I want to share and I already make some of the story but it's just doesn't feels right and I quit in the middle. If you think I'm a coward or easy to give up, I'll let you all be the judge of it. After all.....this world that we live right now.....it'll turned into a massive courtyard where our Creator decides whether we fit in heaven or hell. For those of you who doesn't believe in God, you can make your own story on how the world will ends. I kind a curious though

I don't want to discuss about COVID in here because it's depressing. Especially during the first wave. Viewers were force fed with Covid news and it become a source of other diseases. You hardly recognize others with their masks attached and you ended up in depression. People turn mad then turn to mental hospital. People lose their job and turn homeless. Those who excessively use their money learn to be stingy. I even lose someone important to me which worsen this ADHD problem. Probably I'll tell you some other time if I have the mood to tell it though.

One last thing before I decided to end this opening segment......

I just wanted to let you all know that I decided to turn my ADHD into story with emotions in it. It can be sad, joy, shy, angry, disappointed, and many more. Basically it's similar to diary and hopefully I have the will to write everyday ( not a promise though). I'll try not think this as some sort of disease that eventually led me to despair and distract what I can do. It is true that I don't have any particular goal regarding my future. Instead, I just want to try my best along the way and hopefully I'm able to fulfill my goals just like other people did. I guess that's all I can say for now and I'll let you decide the best closing phrase for a story. Just give your thoughts in the comment section

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