CHAPTER 3: SHATTERED DREAMS

AYO!! AUTHOR NANA HERE, I'M BACK WITH A NEW CHAPTER, THIS ONE WILL BE SET IN SEOJOON'S POV, FROM THE TIME HE MET Y/N, THEIR HIGHSCHOOL, THEIR WEDDING AND DIVORCE. I'LL ALSO TRY TO COVER UP THE AREAS OF SEOJOON'S LIFE AFTER THE DIVORCE. HOPE YOU ALL ENJOY IT. LOVE Y'ALL, 🥰🥰😘😘😍😍❤️❤️

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AUTHOR NANA POV

{From the time of his birth, seojoon has always been loved by the people around him. He was called a saint, cause of the way he carried himself around any company. He was loved and respected by his parents, family, friends, teachers....just about everyone loved seojoon. He made friends who never judged him or scorned him for being rich, he had true friends who would ride or die with him, even at such a young age. Being the son of really flawless parents, his father the owner of a billion dollar company, which screamed old money, his mother a renowned artist who owned an art gallery, that was known widely. And their son, the epitome of perfection. They were just the perfect family in seojoon's eyes... But little did seojoon know, that nothing was ever perfect....

 ....He loved his parents a lot, his father especially more than his mother. He had always looked up to him and dreamed of becoming like him one day. But......it was all snatched away from him when he saw his father in the arms of another woman, in his father's study, the home he lived in with his perfect parents......

.... It was just like any other day, seojoon who was 6 years old, at that time. Was playing hide and seek with his mother, a normal occurrence. He would often spend hours playing games with his parents. They had a schedule for games between themselves, one day would be reserved for his mother and the other would be for his father.

But that day,....that rotten day, ...His father had told him that he had an urgent business matter and that he should play with his mother. Seojoon being the model child he was, complied with his father's request earning himself an affectionate head pat by his father which he had always found comforting. And so the game began, his mother had told him to hide someplace that she wouldn't be able to find him, however much she looked. And seojoon was plenty excited to hide in a place his mother could never find him. So he ran around their spacious estate and went towards his father's study to hide under the table. But....he stopped the moment he heard some kind of noises coming from inside his father's study. It looked like someone was in pain and moaning for someone to help them. So seojoon froze. His kid, like mind, thinking that his father might be in some kind of danger. So he cracked the door open only to some extent and what he saw shattered his dream, life, and soul into a million pieces. There he was, seojoon's father in the arms of another woman, indulging in something a child should never witness, at such a young age. He just stood there wide-eyed, tears welling in his eyes. But before he could even make a sound, everything went black as his eyes were covered by someone, his being getting filled with the whiff of that familiar perfume. He knew the smell of that perfume, it was his mother's. He wanted to struggle, to scream and shout the words 'what the hell is going on, why is his father with another woman, what the hell is he doing with their neighbour who gives him persimmons, just what, why', were the only words that he wanted to scream out until his lungs burned. But that wasn't what broke him, oh no, it was his mother's indifference towards his father's infidelity. She covered his eyes and took him to his room, whispering words to make him forget what he saw. His mother kept saying, 'you saw nothing, that was something related to business, do not tell your father that you opened the door, keep this to yourself, Don't worry about mommy' those were the things seojoon's mother kept chanting like a holy prayer in his ears, until seojoon stopped crying. His mother had warned him that he was to never share what he saw with anybody. So he complied again, just because he didn't want to lose his perfect family.

After that seojoon became an empty shell of his former self. He no longer resembled the kid he used to be. He still acted like a loving son in front of his parents and he kept his promise to his mother and never uttered a word of what he witnessed in his father's study. But he could never return back to the way things were before all this happened...never. And there was only one thing that seojoon despised after that day..... People who have affairs, cheaters.......

It wasn't until the day seojoon's family shifted to another city which led to seojoon getting transferred to a new school. New faces, new friends, new teachers and so on. But he wasn't happy, cause he had already forgotten how to find joy in life. But still he had to attend the prestigious school that his parents had enrolled him into. So he complied again, just like he always did. His first day in school was not so bad, cause he was surrounded by all the rich kids who genuinely wanted to befriend him, but there was only one girl in his class who didn't approach him, she didn't mingle in the crowd of kids who surrounded seojoon during recess. She just stared at nothing in particular quietly. That girl made seojoon feel curious, something he hadn't felt in a long time. The thing that confirmed his determination was when the girl glanced at him for a mere second, which gave seojoon the chance to notice her eyes, they were just like his, cold, distant, hurt and overall....empty. like she had gone through something traumatic just like he had. He made the decision then and there that he would befriend her, hell he was even pumped up that he wanted to marry her when they grow up. That girl was chae y/n. He wanted nothing more than becoming her friend, her partner-in-crime. All of this was because he wanted to heal her wounds, to make her enjoy what life has to offer, he wanted her to show what is love, he wanted to love her. So he approached her that one fateful day in their school's playground and they became best friends, and seojoon forgot about everything that happened that has scarred his joyful self. Chae y/n changed his world, just like he did to hers.

And so began their friendship from the age of 8. Seojoon had finally found someone who became his safe haven. Y/n was like a warm breeze in spring.}

Seojoon[8 year old]: I feel really comfortable around you.

Y/n[8 years old]: me too. (Smiles)

 She was just.....So gentle and kind that seojoon couldn't stop himself from falling in love. He discovered that he had fallen head over heels for y/n at the age of 12, when he found her sleeping in the classroom one afternoon, she looked so peaceful, so pretty....just like an angel... He couldn't stop himself from falling deeper in love with her.

He noticed everything, her smile, the way she yawned, her annoyance, the content smile she gave whenever she ate something sweet, her frowns.... everything.. he was madly in love with y/n... But,... He didn't wanna ruin what they had by confessing his feelings to her out of nowhere. So he waited, he waited like crazy.....until he couldn't. He told his mother about his feelings for y/n at the age of 18. And his mother was delighted, that seojoon had finally shared something with her after being closed off for so many years. She quickly involved her husband and they approached Mr. Chae regarding their kids marriage and he welcomed them with open arms.

 And seojoon was one day, then directly approached by y/n regarding their marriage.}

Y/n: joon, is this true? (After pulling him away from his group of 'guy' friends.)

Seojoon: is what true?? (While unwrapping a candy.) *Does she know*

Y/n: our parents want us to get married, and why am I hearing about this for the first time that you said yes when they asked you about this???

Seojoon: (while gulping) *cause I love you like crazy* umm that, yea I- I agreed to it on my accord.

Y/n: why??? We are friends aren't we?

Seojoon: uhh that yeah. *Wait....*

Y/n: then why?? Didn't you say that you will always be my good friend, then why? You promised that you'll always stay with me then-

Seojoon: (his heart breaks) exactly y/n, I promised that I would always stay by your side but not just a friend. I wanna be more than a friend. Can't I even wish for that, don't I deserve to be happy to. I've always wanted to make you happy, I've always made you happy, I've fulfilled your every wish. Can't I- I wish for just this one thing too, just that you will always become mine as I want you to accept me as yours.

Y/n: I-

Seojoon: *does she not now, did she never notice* ...you what, y/n? Will I never get the chance to ever experience my first love, will I never get to take you out when you are so close yet you always push me so far?? Will I never get to call you my fiancé?? 🥺🥺🥺 (Y/n stays silent) I see, 😭😭😔 I'm sorry, I'm sorry for, ever falling in love with you, for even thinking that maybe you like me too. I'm sorry, but I tried real hard not to fall in love with you but I couldn't stop myself. I fell for you every time I looked at you, every time you smiled, you fell asleep, every yawn, every laugh, everything about you. But I really couldn't help it I'm sorry 😭😭😭😭 (while trying to wipe his tears away but they just keep pouring.) *stop crying , you look stupid* please forgive me for ever thinking that maybe you feel the same about me. Forget that this Conversation ever happened. I'll convince my parents and tell them to not go through with the preparations. I will- (gets hugged by, y/n) wha-- *😧😧😧*

Y/n: just shut up!!! I'm sorry for making you feel that way. Sorry that you had to beat yourself up all these years because of me. I- I like you too.. (breaks the hug, wipes his tears away and pecks seojoon's cheek, whereas seojoon is dumbstruck with wide eyes, but snaps out of his daze when y/n chuckles looking at him. He hugs her tightly lifting her up from the ground, spinning around like he won the world.)

Seojoon: (puts her down) *gosh!!! Yes, she scared me. I knew that she liked me back too.* thank you, thank you so much ☺️☺️☺️💞💞 I- can I ki- *god, I wanna kiss her so badly*

Y/n: you can. (Seojoon slowly closes the distance between them and kisses her, after a brief kiss, y/n pulls away making seojoon pout.) we are still in school.

Seojoon: (smiles angelically) I've always wanted to do that.

Y/n: me too. 😊

Seojoon: I love you. *She's so beautiful* (Hugs her again, smiling.)

Y/n: I- I love you too. (Smiles after they break the hug.)

{After they were married, seojoon was on the ninth cloud he had never thought that he could love someone like crazy. Y/n was everything he wanted, he ever dreamed of, he just loved his best friend, and now...his wife. He didn't wait any longer, they quickly moved from their parental homes to their own home, as seojoon called it🏠🏠🏠. He couldn't believe that he was finally married to the woman of his dreams, he couldn't wait to wake up in the smell of her in bed, live in the same space as spouses, share the same room and so much more...... It wasn't long that seojoon started desiring her, really desiring her. He watched y/n do the most innocent task finding it extra attractive[the most philosophical word I could find], but what could he do...he had waited with such patience for all these years...and then...he finally claimed her,....it was the most beautiful thing....he could never forget how ethereal his wife looked.... And so the years passed, y/n's father hired a female bodyguard for y/n and seojoon wasn't against it as y/n finally had another friend to talk to and who was he to question it. After Mi-young's appearance y/n started to glow like she used to with seojoon and he loved it. He loved her insanely.....until...it was shattered again....on that day...

Seojoon had come home after a long tiring day at work, when he reached the door of their home, he found the door slightly ajar and raised voices coming from inside, he frowned walking inside and what he saw shocked him, he found Mr.chae hitting his daughter, y/n, his wife. He quickly intervened. [I won't write those dialogues from the 2nd chapter, y'all can re-read it again, about the confrontation]} .....

Seojoon: leave..please... (To y/n, Crying)

{His wife, his best friend...his y/n turned out to be the thing he despised the most...a cheater... She had an affair with her bodyguard...and now...they were getting separated....}

-on the day of their divorce-

{Seojoon looked like a living and walking corpse, he had never seen y/n look so hurt... Just like him... She looked guilty... He was too, cause he knew that he pushed y/n into accepting him and married her without even knowing that she wasn't ever interested in..... He felt hurt knowing that she agreed to the marriage and his feelings as he didn't want to break his heart.....but it still stung....

After their divorce, seojoon became the empty shell of his former self again.....he didn't want to live anymore...it was just too draining...waking up to an empty bed, not finding his wife in the spacious home, eating alone..... everything felt empty.... Until his mother introduced another woman whom he married on a whim, and got her pregnant. He tried to love her but it was just too much... He didn't have anymore love to spare.... He just wanted to let his life flow and come to an end. But his world was shaken down again, when he saw her......his y/n......}

CUT🎬🎬🎬🎬 SEE Y'ALL IN THE NEXT CHAPTER, HOPE YOU ENJOYED THIS. AND I'M SORRY THAT I UPDATED THIS AFTER SUCH A LONG TIME, MY FINAL EXAMS ARE REALLY CLOSE, AS SOON AS I WRAP THEM UP. I'LL DROP CHAPTERS LIKE NIAGARA FALLS. ENJOY~~

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