

{>Daily Log Of Life<}

 

[Log 6-10] Truly beginning

[Log 6] First exam day

Heya, welcome ig.

Decided to write today log early in case I forget to later.

I just got back home, from my mid term English exam. Pretty chill.

Of course, I'm decent at the subject.

My school exams date are like:

Mon - English + two other subjects I don't take

Tue - Math & Computer Science + sm

Wed - Blank

Thu - Blank

Fri - Literature + Physics + Geography

Sat - History & Law and economics + sm

Yepp, I only have to take one exam today and it's my best subject so today is chill.

I am soooo not looking forward to Friday. It's going to be tiring.

Anyways, I think I have problem with remembering things or just straight up clumsy.

I legit cannot remember if I need to anything if it weren't write down in my notebook.

Also, I noticed that I always bump into things while walking... The others can just walk causally like a normal person and I'm just this girl who get her shirt stuck in the corner.

I guess I have always been clumsy.

I hated it. Why can't I just be normal?

...----------------...

[Log 7] 5 PM

Hello again.

I took Math and Computer Science test today.

It suck. I checked the answer and can guess my score a 88% in math. It's not even 90%

I did like sh*t in Computer Science today, I couldn't do the writing part right.

I sit in the front so it hard to ask someone and I just try to do it by myself.

I should've study harder.

I should've...

Anyway, I'll just leave it here. I'm too upset to continue writing this.

...----------------...

[Log 8] Night time

Hello, again.

Today's the first day of break from exam.

Arghh, I can't find my English exam paper to check it, where the heck did I even put it??

I looked EVERYWHERE.

Did I even bring it home with me?

Did I??

Ughh, can't believe it.

it's getting harder to sleep early at night.

I dunno why, I just couldn't put myself to sleep and when I finally do it at least past 10 PM already. Probably near 11 or something.

I'll try to find the paper again tomorrow, it gotta be somewhere. It can't just be gone like that.

See you.

...----------------...

[Log 9] End of exam.

I'm... I'm freeeeeeee

Let's go babyyyyyyy

Ahem, anyway.

Today is the end of my exam week and I'm so happy about it, yasss.

Wait, f*** Do I have extra study class tomorrow morning? I forgot. Bruh.

... I'll check it later.

I'm supposed to be at school watching some show & performances and cheering for my classmates rn. It's a show at my school that every class take place.

But here I am, at my house not giving a ****.

I wonder if my class are having fun rn. They should.

I'm missing out rn huh... I don't care, it's not like I can do anything anyways. Besides, I'm just gonna be standing alone in the crowd or sm. Don't want that, I hated that feeling.

Maybe I should've go. Maybe I should've be my active with my class.

Ugh, I don't care, I don't need to care about it. It just a normal day anyway, it's nothing special.

I'm not missing anything.

Hopefully.

..... Bye, see you soon.

...----------------...

[Log 10] Teacher's Day

(⚠️Warning: Vent.)

Hey again.

Well... I haven't post anything for like 4 days cause there been a storm in my country(yes, it take storm frequently) and it just been raining a lot these day.

Today's teacher day in my country, teacher is usually getting gift from students in this day.

But since this year it rain a lot so it's dangerous for students to go to school so we have a few days off ^^

After exam week too, how convenient. I've been enjoying it so far.

Y'know... since our school anniversary can't continue and students gotta stay at home. My classmates decided to throw a party at our main teacher house.

I honestly don't want to go that much, but since it's a class activity I figure it's best that I go.

So, I asked on the group that was make to plan about this day.

"Hey, what time should we go to the teacher house?"

9 people see the message, no one answered.

Right now it's 5:30 PM, I checked the message like 20 minutes before.

On one of my extra class group, one of my classmates asked to be absent.

To go to the party of course.

She sent the message along with a picture of my teacher with her child. At 16:30 PM.

My messages? No answer, the group that was make for the day got no answer.

Where did they agree on the time? which group was it?

Why didn't they tell me? All the people I know or at least interactive more, none of them message me a single thing.

That's how f***ing forgotten I am, okay?

Honestly? This is exactly why I don't want to go in the first place.

I mean, it's not like I blame them or something. It's high school, everyone gotta at least know a friend or two. Unlike me, who clearly doesn't know anybody.

They didn't try to be mean, I'm sure. They just simply... they just simply forgot that I even exist.

I feel... sad. A little sad.

Of course I would be sad, I'm "allow" to be sad about this.

But it's not hurt, well at least not too much. maybe just a little.

What did I even do to deserve this?

Oh right, nothing. I didn't do anything to be consider a close friend to anyone.

I am such a social jinx.

Ha, Daily log chapter 2 is going to be a funnn ride.

...----------------...

Ha... ha hahahaha.

I said I'm not that hurt but...

Jeez, I'm crying right now. I hated this feeling, I hated the feeling of not belonging to anything.