Chapter 3: Stefan in doubt

I didn't sleep much that night. because of the dream I had the night before. I was also scared for the reaction from Stefan in my letter. When I fall a sleep I luckily didn't have a bad dream any more. Just a dreamless sleep.

My alarm went off in my head way to early, but I know I had to wake up.

I took the letter and put it downstairs in my bag. I did it now before my mom woke up. She can't see this letter. I didn't want to worry her.

I went in silence back upstairs and I got back into my room. Where I grabbed a few things out of my closet and put thema on.

In the meantime I heard my phone ringing. Who could that be this early in the morning?

In my screen came Stefans number. I dailed the green horn. His voice stounded both concert and sleepy.

"Are you ok?" he asked worried.

"Why would I not be?" I asured him.

"I thought it was real, but it seemed tot be a dream."

I stood there dumb founded. Did we have the same dream? I could ask him what he had dreamed about.

"What was your dream about?"

He started with:

It was dark...

That made me feel already scared and I felt more pannick. When he explained further.

My breath seemed to go faster. Stefan asked worried, "are you ok?"

The only thing I could say. "We had exactly the same dream."

"How could that be?"

For a while there was a cold selince between us. That had never happened before. It brought me in a dark place. "What is happening to you and me?"

There we're so many questions between us that I didn't know what to do. I just felt the phone trimble in my hand.

The last thing I told him was, "let's calm down and we talk at school. I will explain."

The way to school was difficult tears tracing my cheecks. I hope he doesn't doubt me after what happened, but hope is this tiny thing that van shatter any moment. My thoughts got darker and darker any moment.

It didn't even happen for real yet. Still my thoughts where consumed by it.

When I got in the bus In saw Stefan sitting in the back with a face full of worry. I was going to him and took the Seat in nearest to him.I wanted to lay my had on his shoulders, but he moved away.

"I don't know what to think about you?"

"Did this happen for real or did you just say they trued?"

Those questions hurted me so much more then I had imagned. We just say there in an akward silence. That had never happened to us.

The only word that came over my lips where, "are you doubting me?"

He didn't awnser directly, but his face told me enough. He was doubting everything at the moment. The forwn in his face. His eyes looking somewhere far away through the window.

My heart got pulled through the drain. I just kept sitting there not trying to cry, but it was so difficult not to. One single tear left my eye and then I took een deel breath. I felt a bit more confident and asked him again. "Are you doubting me?"

This time it seemed Stefan was going to aswner. When he did his words hang in the air for a while. "Did this happen for real?"

I directly shocked my head and said, "no absolutly not."

"Why is this happening to is? There have to be a reason or not?"

I said those questions you no one in particular, but Stefan of course had heard them.

Then he grabbed my hand and he said, "Let's find out!"

I felt so happy that his doubts seemed to have going away.

I know this was going to be difficult, but we where strong and we will get trough this. I was surten of it.

At school we tried to do as normal as possible also to alexander.

I sat with Alexander and we talked about the vacation. The autumn one.

"Let's see each other then. You can come to me." He never had asked me and I was kind of surprised and curius why he asked.

Also a little scared what he was going to say if I said no.

"Why don't you come to my house?"

"It's a bit far." he said and that made me doubt if I should go.

"We talk later about this ok" Saying it trying to be calm as possible.

"Ok let's do that" He said like he was a bit nervous.

The bell rang and we had to go back to class.

Class was a bit borig. It was France. I tought the most horrible language I ever heard. I was not good at it. I spend long hours to get it in my head. Still it was like it didn't get in my head.

I was so happy when the bell rang again and we could go to the playground. There was Alexander again. Probably waiting for me, but now I wanted to spent a bit time with Stefan. He had been so good to me. I didn't want to mess up our relationship.

"Sorry, I am going to spent a bit time with Stefan right now." I told Alexander.

He seemed a bit jealouse and that made me a bit scared for what he was planning for when I was coming. Maybe it was best not to go and just stay home and meet up with Stefan. He was my boyfriend of course. I would never betray him. That was for sure.

I went to the sports playground where Stefan was playing soccer with his friends. When he saw me he came to me and kissed me passionaly on the lips. I felt in the clouds each tim he kised me. I wanted it to be like that forever.

The one question was what was going to happen with Alexander?

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