ptaa nhi

Aaj mai likh hi rahi toh ye bhi likh deti hu.

Kyuki raaz ya chupana apne dil ki baat aur jzbaat nakaaabile brdaasht ho jaata hai.

Mai chahti nhi hu ki koi mujhe sune pr mai chup rehna bhi nhi chahti. Ye jaan kr bhi ki khamoshi meri bht pyaari sahelii hai.

Sch ye hai ki mujhe likhnaa waqai nhi psnd.

Kabhi kabhi toh mujhe nfrat hoti hai.

Ek zraa se keybord jis pr kuch key maujood hai.

Ek chota sa dimaag joh fir kise dairay mai qaid hai aur iski ajeeb-o-gareeb rachnaa.

Pr fir jeete kaise hai.

Aadm ka qusoor uska Aadm hona hai.

Aur mera uski aulaad hona.

Iblees ki baate mai aksr nhi krti kyuki Mai uske baare sochti bhot km ho.

Sach kaho toh mai Munaafiq ho.

Wahi Munaafiq jis pr meraa rbb laant bhejtaa hai.

(Munaafiq ke maane Hypocrite.)

Mai Aksr aapko unhi chizo mai uljhi nzr aaogi jinse durii rakhne ki hidayat mai khule-aam deti hu.

Kisi shqs ne aaj mujhse kahaa k mai shraaft ki tasveer liye ghomtii hu.

Joh ki ajeeb tha sunna kyuki Shraaft kya hoti hai mai nhi jaanti.

"Acchai ki mehfil mai hm aksr bure aur boraai ki mehfil mai ache nzr aate hai.

Imaan waalo ko kaafir aur kaafiro ko Imaan waale nzr aate hai."

Ye bhi sch hai ki logo ki raay mere liye kuch khaas maine nhi rakhti.

Pr fir mai insaan bnn jaati ho aur raat k andhere mai khayaalo k daaman mai kabhi kabhi sochne lgtii ho.

Sochna bhi ek mrz hai.

Isse mujhe woh mzaakiyaa kitaab yaad aayi "Don't belive everything you think" by Joseph Nguyen uskaa ek chapter jahaa woh thought aur think k drmiyaan frk btaa rahe the.

Mai ne woh kitaab purii nhi padi iss hisse ko padh kr maine uss kitaab ko chor diyaa.

Wese bhi mujhe self help kism ki book se sakht chidh hai.

Pr fir wahi mujhse zyada meri jostajoo mujh pr qaaboo rakhti hai aur woh mujhe kisii bhi dar (door) le jaa skti hai.

Mai ye kayi dfaa sochtii ho ke Khuda ne Aadm ko bnaaya kyu.

Aur ye sawal toh farishto ne bhi kiyaa tha.

Iskaa jwaab joh mujhe aata hai woh kuch esaa hai ke usse likhne ya kehne se mujhe drr lgtaa hai kyuki agr ye sunn kr mera khaalik mujhse naraaz ho gya toh?

Mujhe jahnnam se drr nhi lgtaa hai na hi jannat k baare mei mai sochtii hu.

Mujhe bss usse naraaz krne se drr lgtaa hai.

Aur ye bhi bht ajeeb hai kyuki ye mai nhi mujh mai maujood koi aur keh rahaa hai.

Meri Munaafiqat ki ek aur misaal esi hai ki;

Mai aksr kehtii hu ki mujhe taarefy bilkul nhi psnd.

Pr Haqeeqat hai ki chaahe mai unn taarifo ko kitna hi khukhlaa kyu na maanti ho,

kahi na kahi mujhe woh acchi lgti hai.

Kaash aadmzaat ki kahi hrr baat scchi aur aitebaar krne laayak hoti.

Pr shyd achha hi hai ke nhi hi hain jhoot bolne ka bhi alg hi mzaa hai.

Hasii aati hai mujhe unn muftiyo pr joh Haraam aur Halaal jhoot pr vaaz dete hai.

Lancali kehti hai ke "There's nothing more human than sin."

aur isse padh kr mujhe waqai bht sukoon mehsoos hota hai. (ye bhi jhoot hai irl laughed while reading it)