Nonsense

Ptaa nhiii

Ye Duniya ek Qafas hai.

Kise ke liye sune ka, kise k liye lohe ka kisi k liye kaisaa kise k liye kaisaa.

Pr hai ye Qafas hi. Mujhe esaa lgtaa hai ki aasman aur zameen ki giraah mai qaid ho aur mai ise mehfooz maano ya na maano ye maaine nhi rakhta.

Isse yaad aaya ki woh kehte hai, aur mai bhi maanti hu k sb ka haafiz khuda hai. Wahi khuda jisne hme filhaal iss zameen-o-aasman ke hisaar mai baandha hua hai.

Abb ye rawa hai ya na rawa ye mai nhi jaanti.

Pr mujhe ye pinjraa bht stataata hai aksr Na-gawaar sa lgtaa hai.

Aur agr mai maut ko azaadi kahogi, mrr jaane ki khwahish rakhogi toh ye glt hai kyuki ye kehte hai ki khud halaak krne ki ijazat tumhe nhi hai.

sch kaho toh mai puri tarike se khudkhushi ko glt nhi maanti aur dekho toh sahi iss mai "khud" aur " "khoshi" likha bhi hai.

Fir woh kehte hai ki tumhara maqsad khud ko khush karnaa nhi, usse yaane apne khudaa ko khush krnaa hai isiliye uske liye tumhe qaid rehnaa hoga.

Thora ajeeb lgtaa hai mujhe.

Pr drr hai agr iss pr sawaal kiya toh kaafir na ho jaao.

Aur kufr se sb se zyada drr hai mujhe.

Kyunki aakhiri tak mewri dua ek awchaa gulaam bnne ki hi rahegii.

Joh ki mai hu nhi.

Mai apne rbb se bhot mohbbat kwrnaa chahti ho

pr mujhe mohbbat krnaa nhi aata.

Afsoos ki baat hai ki mai gunehgaar ho aur mera gunaah mohbbat na kr paana hai.

mai laakho sher ishq k naam ker skti ho pr ye meri Haqeeqat nhi.

aur iss k liye mai khud kusurwaar ho.

Haa ese log hai iss zameen pr joh mujhe waqai psnd hai aur shyd ese bhi hai job mujhe psnd krte hai.

Ek burii baat ye bhi hai ke joh mujhe psnd krte hai ya mujhse mohbbat krte hai, unse mohbbat mai kr nhi paati.

Kitnii burii ho na mai rooh ki baat kr toh leti ho mgr ho toh mai neurochemicals ki aadi.

kyuki chaah kr bhi mai mera insaan hona rokh nhi paaa rahi hu.

Ese likhte likhte mai bkre ki awaaz sunn rahi ho joh kuch ghnto baad zabah ho jaayegaa usiii khuda k naam jisne mujhe qaid rakhaa hai. Yaaa wahi khudaa jisse mai mohbbat kwrna chahti ho.

Ptaa nhi kyu uss ki awaaz mujhe rolaa rahi hai.

Mai kisi aur ki jaan apne rbb k naam kaise qurbaan kr do?

Qurbaani hoti kyaa hai?

Aur kya waqai uski jagah meri aulaad hoti toh mai yo qurbaan krdetii? Mera jwaab "nhi" hai.

Mera Imaan Hazrat Ibraahim a.s jaisaa nhi hai.

Aur mujhe nhi ptaa mai maafi kaise maango pr

rbb ji mai Ismail a.s ko zabah nhi kr paati.

Toh iski jaan khud pr frz maan kr kaise qurbaan krdo?

Ek pl mere paas saare jwaab hai aur dusre hi pl kuch bhi nhi.

kyuki swaalo aur jwaabo k darmiyaan mai khud ko kho chuki

Uski awaaz-e mujhe bht zyada preshaan kr rahi hai.

I will forever miss you Shippeeee.