Have you guys ever had a dream that you actually feel happy and relief in there?
I did.
Just 10 mins ago, I had a dream that after waking up, I smile in happiness and contentment. It was nothing, and not that worth to have that feeling, mais somehow it made me love my life more than ever.
It was just about a long journey of me and one guy from my class. I don't really have a crush on him, but just like him a little more than a normal friend. We did not even talk to each other much, only a few times (once, twice or such..) cuz I don't play with the boys in my class. But to be honest, if I have chances, I'll definitely make friend with him, be his bff - a friend without which he and me cannot live. He's very good and friendly tho, it's just another side is too shy to say even a word.
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(I don't really remember what was happening so I'll just make a brief summary)
Recently I was thinking about him so it's understandable when he was in my dream. Basically, we were just roaming around the village and tried to survive from dangerous things. We first just visited that village on each own. Just go here and there to see how is it and tryna find something interesting. Then we together, with my family and my other friends too went out the village to come back home.
But my mom left her stuff there so she needed to go back. Suddenly a stranger appeared and told us that he wanna help (as he had a motorbike). My mom agreed and went wih him. It'd be normal if he did not drive her into a steep narrow bumby road.
That's why we followed her. We ran out of breath to make sure that she's ok. When we got up there, we see nothing except a bed of snake. Gosh, I'm not scared of snakes but I do scare of getting bitten and then died. But I still kept going, going until one of those snakes suddenly raised which made us jump out of the cliff. Luckily it was just a dream so, not a big deal. On the ground, I saw my mom also get down here and was still ok, "Thank God!".
Later, we come back home. On the way, we went to visit a school. It was nice, small tho. Then something was going on which I forgot, that at the end, we caught the headmaster who had corrupted for over 10 years. Then some random people came to us, threw some paper and told us that we 'must' tear them into much smaller pieces, or else something bad would happen. Actually there were more, we fought against monster, ran away from some creatures, etc but I forgot all of them. I just remember that it was a exhausting but fun journey.
From there on, we really came back home. Now then only me and he were in the scene. Somehow in my dream, we were a couple. But we did nothing throughout the journey, not holding hand, hugging or even asking each other 'are you ok' or stuff. Like we'd been through a very hard day that everyone was too busy to care about others but themselves.
Then we got back home, did some stuff, and walking around in the yard. We met each other there. I looked at him, feeling really lonely (bruh don't know how to describe but it's something slightly like that) as we had not even been 'next to' each other although we were always staying closed. It was a sign for a hug, and yep, he also had the same face as me. We got closer, closer, and hugged each other. I have never gotten that feeling when hugging someone.
Why was it so good?! It was like you finally found your home, your belonging, your safe place after going through a tough day. A hug to please other, not only love but also consoling, the happiest and the most relief hug I'd ever had. I mean I don't even feel like that in real life, but whatever I've gone through in my dream, it felt so real which rn, death for me is a scary thing. I always live a life that die or alive are just concepts, what will come to me, it'll come and I can't avoid it. It's never been a problem for me, until I have this dream. It was so pure and naive, like a fairy tale with the most peaceful ending you've ever read. I truly love it. If you feel the same in a relationship, then now I understand why everyone wants to have their beloved.
For real, I still have that feeling till now. I don't think a hug would cure me that much. Perhaps I don't usually hug people, even with my family, I just do that once or twice per 3 months. With my friends? Never. I always have a thought that if I have a boyfriend, holding hand and hugging, not kissing or something further, only these two actions can make me happy in the whole day. Sometimes I think about it, think about a future when I have a bf and we do that frequently, it'd sound so nicee. But into practice, I have never really had this experience till today, and it has successfully healed me. A hug for only a few seconds but it lasted like hours.
Now I want to hug that guy, really really want haha. I go to school, see him, and running to his place to give him a hug. Not a love hug, friend hug, but a thank hug, thanks to him that I could have that comfort feeling. If it's not him in this dream, I'll feel different.
In real life, for other boys, I sometimes like them becuz of their appearance or how smart, how intelligent they are. For this guy, first is replacement (I don't want to talk about this shit, just know that I really feel regretted now), after is him. He being himself is the only thing that I like. Kind, friendly, funny, honest, naive (at some extent), and some others more. But I still like him as a friend, don't have any intention to come to a relationship. For other boys, I might have contrast thoughts. That's why this dream is perfect with his presence.
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A hug after a tough day is the best. Hugging and consoling at the same time? Oh my, I don't wanna die anymore. It'd be the greatest experience if in the future, I can find a person like that. I do like him more after this, but just stop as a friend, no further more. I don't want to destroy this pure friendship. I just want to thank him.
