I just write to release my feelings and... just confide in myself.
I'm bisexual, because of that, my classmates hate me. In the past, I felt very lonely and hurt because of the insults and curses. But now, I have met friends who are also LGBT like me. I feel lucky about that.Thanks to that, I can live true to myself.
My mood is unstable, my temper is erratic.In the past, my bandmates who had just met me said that I was difficult to approach. It's not that I'm difficult to approach...but because my past is not secure, I'm afraid to open my heart to others.
I have a best friend, he is my only close friend forever. People say: "Are you sure you're close friends? As for your best friend, surely played well?" But for me, he is both close and good. In short, he is both a close friend, a benefactor and the reason I live until now. If Stefor reads this, I want to tell you - my close friend forever - something like this: Even though you're not a lover, you are the most important person in my life. If people say "Nothing is forever" then...will you be my "nothing" best friend?
I am a difficult person to share, for everyone I do not trust enough, but for the person I trust the most, I am afraid that he will be affected by my sad stories. But that doesn't mean I don't share, I'm learning how to share my feelings to make my heart more comfortable.
Busy, tired, nostalgic is the me of the past few days. I have very good memories, I don't want to forget them at all, but every time I remember them, my heart aches. Perhaps, I am not strong enough to control my tears.
Am I strong, or am I weak?
Should I laugh, or should I cry?
I'm tired...I want to sleep, just a little...or forever?Haha...probably not...
Sorry for my bad English...
