I. The devil came back.
I want a peaceful death.
I got lost and will never be the same person I was.
I never want to live like this again.
I try so hard for meaningless things just to make my life a little bit better.
Have you ever been eaten alive by your own thoughts?
Even when I try to stop it, my heart continues to beat.
Things are getting worse and I can't hide from the truth.
It's fucking hurting to keep my mind awake.
In my dreams I kill myself a million times, but in reality I can't do it.
Sometimes I wake up at midnight and can't breathe.
I cried for a week.
The wall is bleeding.
What keeps us here?
II. Midnight by the river of regrets.
I ran from my sorrow again.
I hope there's a gate to another world.
This planet is crashing me to pieces.
My dreams are filled with screams, and there is no way to stop them.
Death memories haunted me day by day.
I accept that I'm nothing but a shameful human being.
Beauty doesn't last forever.
My old self is shaking in fear and has started to cry.
There are so many diseases, I can't count them all.
Existence is a pain that we have to suffer through.
III. Insane room.
I keep losing my mind. I fucking hate myself.
Why am I so weak?
I fucking hate this disease.
Why am I here?
I can't even end my life.
What happened to me?
I'm lost
I'm screaming every five minutes.
I'm so scared I'm getting old.
I can't find my own personality.
Nobody can save me.
IV. Acompromise.
I don't really belong anywhere, like a group of friends or any community. It's ok, it's fine. In that way, maybe I can feel unlimited in this world and be free in this entire universe.
V. Unhealthy sequence.
My dreams are full of blood.
I'm drowning in my own tears.
I do everything I can to keep my head calm.
It feels like WW3 in there.
VI. Final thoughts.
Maybe in my next life, things will get better and I'll never think about ending my life in pain and regret.
I never want to be like this.
I used to be so kind and just wanted to make friends with everybody.
Now I'm always worried about everything in my life, and all I want is death.
